ginachia

a comeback!

2007-06-14T16:35:00.001+08:00

Well. I havent been blogging for months. i'm just being plain lazy.

so much happened within these few months.

ups and downs in life. but i'd still like to say, no matter what ups and downs are there, it definitely couldn't be compared to what's 1.5 years back. (:

i withdrew from millennia institute, went to work at Paul & Joe, got into a new school, temasek polytechnic and i knew lotsa friends over there.

the greatest thing that happened to me was going for the FOC, alone. (: if i didn't turn up for the camp, i'm very assured to say that, life would be totally different now.

From then onwards, i've been real busy with life. I really like the feeling rather than feeling empty and boring all the days. And oh. Darlings and i were separated too. Well, the greatest price to pay for all the fun would be the accompanyment of darlings. But like what Leslie said, i can't revolve my life all around them in my whole life. I need to step out of them, learn to lead a life without them. All becuase, i was too used to being with them.

my new life

2007-02-26T00:15:00.000+08:00

i started blogging finally.
life's exciting recently with the addition of new people to spice up my days.
about what happened ecaxtly last month, i shan't elaborate for i'm lazy.
all i care bout now is 07B5. at least for this last one week before we go separate ways.
07B5, a group of fantastic people i knew. For the first time i knew what's called unity, cooperation and class spirit. this is a class that outwin any class that i was in during my school journey. what's 4ec compared to 07b5?

the class chalet that was just over was a totally great success. it really brought the whole class closer and more bonded tgt. despite that i had to work, i'd still rush down there without fail even if it's for a few hours. i had like hell loads of fun although i merely went in the night. so what do you call the fun they had in the day? i think i'd prolly grab everyone to kiss if i were there in the day. because of the chalet, i knew many more classmates more in depth and i am glad. seriously glad. all the people who contributed to make this chalet a success one, i sincerely thank all of them alot. keith, janet, rayson, darren... it's been tough on you guys.
and oh. the drunk night was ultra fun. funny too. heh.

recently the class is all about skipping lessons, MAHJONG, blackjack, uno... we as a class skipped maths lecture tgt and went to catch a movie! this is super cool lah. the unity of 07b5 shows again. i was really amazed by the class spirit. everybody eats tgt, walk tgt, play tgt... AS A CLASS, i emphasis. Though i dun really like the show, but it's not about what show that i am watching but who am i watching with that makes it worth it. i also learnt how to play mahjong in class few days back. now, i'm totally hooked onto it. thus, we had a 'outing' again! and that's to stay over at val's house to play overnight mahjong! what's more bombastic, we even planned what to wear for school. instead of uniform, we decided to make it special by wearing orientation shirt and shorts and attend school late. it's really team spirit down there. seriousl;y, nothing beats being with 07b5. even boring lessons were made alive.

last friday, the sub-class went for another outing. kbox at cineleisure! before we started singing, they said this 'before we sing we must sing a song first.' i thought they wanted to start the MI song again. 'in our journey, our institute gives us strength...' but who knows... 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO GINA! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!' ARGHHHH! my tears were like nearly out. that was the loudest birthday song i heard in my life. i was VERY touched despite that it's merely a song. i dno how should i say i really thank and love every single of them but i really really do. that lil dumbo present that janet gave me also touched me. i guess, i hafta save all my tears till the last day. i think everyone will also do.

the class really made every lil' effort to celebrate our birthdays.
21st, wednesday was HUIQI's.
23rd, Friday was ZAHEIR's.
24th, Saturday was GINA's.
be it that it was only movie... birthday song... Espall's mum's self baked cake... it was really the class sweet thoughts.

pictures done by mel.

Life!

2007-01-21T01:30:00.000+08:00

So much happened again.
During a day last week, i fainted again. Yes, after like six months i experienced the scary feeling. But this time round i wasn't admitted to the hospital. Haha.
It happened like this...
I had a slight stomachache early in the morning when i was about to head for school at Khatib mrt. However, due to that darling was alr waiting for me in Yishun mrt so i thought i'd be able to endure the pain till Bukit Batok lah in order not to make her wait for me. Well, you'll know the consequences of acting clever later. -.-"
Who knows, this bu zhang jin stomach bu zheng qi. Bu ting hua and the pain grew so much more unbearable on the way. So pain that i had to clench my fists and i was sorta sweating alr. When i reached BB, i alr had no strength and fight my against the pain to stand up and get outta the train. But fuck! The moment i stood up, my legs turned woobly, head and body was feeling light. The feeling was so familiar. Thus i told darling when we were going down the stairs 'darling i think i am gonna faint soon. if i really faint you must help me k?' and shit enough, the direction that i came out from the train was only the staircase and not lift or escalator infront of me. -.-"
only three steps after i spoke, i really fainted. It's uberrrrrrrrrrr pai seh! She said many eyes and fingers were on me. And YunKwang thought i fell down, he sommore said he wanted to laugh at me! Ass!
Then darling quickly helped me up and walk down the stairs. From what i knew from her, she said i fainted again at the control station gate. Thus, she helped me up again. Then when we were out, Priscilla was waiting for us. Another silly thought i was trying to be funny. LOL! Only after she knew i fainted then she came to help me also. HAHAHA. Then we walked to the nearest Macdonald's, i fainted outside there again. Cannot make it! -.-"
I'm so proud of myself lah. LOL! I really dno how the hell i could even stood up and walked afew steps. I lost conscious, couldn't feel anth, weak, strength-less, PAIN... Yeap. And only after YunKwang knew that i didn't fell down but fainted instead then only he was frightened. LOL! I was also told that everyone (Darling, Pris, YK and Haikal) were all frightened by me. Haha. Sorry guys to have scare you all and if weren't for me, you guys won't be late for school also. Anyway, so HUGE thank you to my darling and Priscilla for helping me all the way. =) She was also my nanny for the day! Hahahaha. For all you know, huan nan jian zhen qing! -.^
Anyway, i was fine after awhile. The moment we stepped into class, the teacher screamed at us. Fuck it! I shan't blog about what happened among us. She's a bloody witch! Someone, she needs a broom! Damned! She reminded me of my rebellious secondary school days. I hate her!
We still continued with our 'child's play'. LOL! TADAH...

2007-01-13T01:15:00.000+08:00

MY SCHOOL!

We were out together on Wednesday. :)

So toot! We stood too straight! LOL!

This time round, we spend little on money and more on materials. Haha. We nearly stepped into DIN TAI FUNG which when we eventually come out of it, half of our money would be gone. HAHA. It was a good harvest day! -.^

Although no bakerzin, no din tai fung, we're still as happy as ever! Hehehe! =)

Snapshots!

2007-01-12T23:46:00.000+08:00

TODAY

After school:

These are seriously very unglam pictures.

Yeah right, we're trying to be funny. -.-"

Arghhh! FUCK it!

During curriculum hours:

Venue of stupidity: CLASSROOM!

Business Management period

Noticed that we were both in spects? Caz so coincidencely, our contact lens broke. On the same day sommore.

YESTERDAY

We The Ship-ed with Janet. It was uncle John's treat! =)
08-01-07

After school:

Town-ed.

During curriculum hours:

Venue: School

GP period. BOOOORING!
Haha! The goondoo doesn't have a table! LOL!

So much within a week. Had GP, Economics, Mathematics and Business Management.

H2 Economics, Mathematics and Business Management. Well, Mathematics alone can cost my life. Even if i'm really staying on, H2 Maths would definitely not be in my list of choice.

First lesson for Biz Management and i got tekan-ed from the fucking teacher caz i was flipping classified ads for jobs. LOL! Shit you, damned indian rojak man!

GP was like DAMN boring. Thats why there's the outcome of all the lame pictures above. Majority were all our secret snapshots of Samantha and me in class. We tou pai each other. SICK! LOL! HAHA. OH! I secretly snap shot of my boring GP teacher's picture but somehow or rather it's not very nice to post it up here. She's quite nice afterall. Hee. Better than that indian black rojak! I didn't manage to take his dumb picture. If not i will post it here! SHIT HIM!

Btw, this is Natalie! She just joined the world for less than a month. She's so cute right? :) Let's all welcome her, a new life! =)

Schooling's fun!

2007-01-08T19:46:00.000+08:00

Another weekend passed. A lazy weekend rather.
Friday was keyboard lesson again.
Another song's gonna be completed and i can learn my own choice of song alr! YAYY! =D
After completing Tong Hua's intro i can skip to a brand new song! =)
Been learning Tong Hua for like four lessons alr. I don't like the song so it's kinda wasteful. No choice. It's the school's decision. =(
After keyboard i went into a travel agency and i was so excited about their stuffs lah.
Their service they provide and the plans and stuffs. Whoo!
Gets me more anticipated to my upcoming Hong Kong and Taiwan trip!
Oh.
Hong Kong in late March with Regina and Samantha. =)
Taiwan in September with Regina and Riena.
After that went to meet Tammy for dinner at Sizzler. The salad bar's good! *thumbs up*
She paid for my meal. Haha. Afterall, she's my nian qing ah yi wat. =D

It was a stay-home-saturday. I can't believe it. -.-"
Wanted to go out but was simply way too lazy to even change.
Woke up at 1pm, munched on Fran (princess, i never sorethroat lae. =D) as my breakfast cum lunch then was too tired again, went back to sleep. Caz internet connection's god damn slow due to the aftermath of Taiwan's earthquakeand thus the show i'm currently watching couldn't be completely downloaded. One word, SICKENEING. So, nothing left for me to do and i went to sleep. Woke up, godfather's back home from work. The sky alr turned black. Ate my dinner, sat infront of my comp for the whole night again and then went to sleep at 3am.
HOW LIFELESS!

Haha, but Sunday was better. I decided not to be lazy anymore. =X When i woke up immediatley rang bro up and asked him to go for lunch at Bishan's Din Tai Fung, my current favourite! =))
Zha jiang mian + xiao long bao + yu ni xiao long bao = heavenly
It's not my treat anyway. Heh!
After we were bloated we went to amk for a walk. The newly opened shopping mall.
Ahhh, it's a waste of my time. LOL. Nothing much there except the few pathetic shops that were opened plus the super big ntuc. That's all.
Then we went home and relatives came. There goes my weekend.
Not fun at all!

And well today, i went to school. We were supposed to report at like 9am but YunKwang's got wrong information and all of us reached school at 7.55am. I nearly strangled him to death! LOL! My beauty sleep! =(
School was practically very slack today.
Assembly(9am); P.E briefing; break; GP period; DISMISSAL (12.30pm)
HOW LAME CAN IT BEEEEEEE? Shou bu liao -.-"
In the end, i didn't go home but met up my sweetheart.
But god damn it! I've got so many things that i wanna buy BUY BUY BUY BUY!
Ultimate aim is now the bag that costs $99 from Projectshop! (sweetheart, you gek-ed me! LOL!)
We went to bakerzin to collect her cake. Guess what?! S.O.S she bought!
I was gek-ed again! LOL! I always never get to eat that when we bakerzin-ed. Kill me, KILL ME!

Anyway, think i'm gonna get a job soon. I can't carry'on like this. I can't live without money. Life's meaningless when i can't spend. -.-"
When i get my pay, HOHOHO, my dearest digital piano you're gonna follow me back home! $999, or anybody wanna buy it for me? Then i dun needa work. LOL!
New year, how i wished you are just tomorrow. LOL!

Millenia Institute

2007-01-05T23:31:00.000+08:00

It's a new beginning, a brand new start!
I am posted to Millenia Institute and i really liked the school alot.
The feeling of my first step in there was so different from what is of it when i first step into Northland. Aiya, Northland simply sucks. MI was different. It's a new school and a new environment. Everything changed. It's so amazing! I've finally graduated and now i'm actually in an institution alr. It's really amazing to me! =)

03-01-06
It was Samantha and my 3rd anniversary. We've known each other for three full years. Still remember back in Secondary two inside the container when we first met. Haha. We were two pathetic souls. She looked at me and i looked at her. We said that 'no matter what we must stay tgt' HAHAHA. We're two stranger at that time. I'm serious, stranger. Haha. =)

It's fate alright. My darling and i. -.^ After that, three of us had a gathering at Sindy's house. It was also Ke Yuan's (Sindy's first younger bro) birthday. So we had a steamboat feast and threw a party for KeYuan. The feeling was so warm, so 'secondary school'. Haha. =)

05-01-06

And today, it was Regina, Riena and my 4th anniversary.

See this, Riena + Gina = Regina

This is cool right? =D

How do you find such good friends in the world who shares almost the similar interest, hobby, style and name as you. Three persons sommore. Haha!

We first met at Heeren four years back. Well, only we knew how we met. Shh! =X

Our first year, Riena and i went to Taiwan.

Our second year, Riena, Regina and i went to Taiwan. XQXYY (Xing Qing Xing You Yi) was also formed. Compromising Riena, Gina, Regina, Jo, Pam, MeiLing, Eileen and LD. =)

Our third year, Riena and i went to Thailand.

We sleep tgt, play tgt, have fun tgt and get mad tgt! We only haven't bathe tgt. HAHAHAHA! =X

I love them and i always will. For one is my sweetheart and another is dearest da jie.

They know me. =)

Hairdo!

2006-12-31T19:50:00.001+08:00

30th June 2006
We went to have our hairdo. A temporary one though.

It took like only two hours and yet i felt like my butt was burning on the chair. LOL!

Before

In the midst

(-.-" picture)

What the hell!

Tadah! -.^

Front

Back

Side

Sorry Samantha. I told her i'd try to look up her after she knock off from work but i didn't manage to go in time. Well, i was held up in Ikea (My all time fav! -.^) =X

My loved ones.

2006-12-30T03:11:00.000+08:00

25th December 2006

I kept breaking my promise. LOL! It's either i always overslept or i suddenly had things that cropped up and we can't meet. Hahaha.

But we finally met during X'Mas day! Our first CHRISTMAS spent together, with my Samantha. =)

We had lunch in Suki Ramen and got a very good seat that allows us to see the whole Cineleisure where she recapped the past to me. Everything was so beautifully planned. I did not feel upset nor sad when she raked up the past. Yet, i felt happy and blissed. I smiled and smiled and smiled like nobody's business and could even felt heat all around my body. =)

How'd 24th Feb 2007 be?

Still remember this, darlings? It withered for like 10months already, but i still kept it in my room. Hahahaha. Despite that mummy kept nagging me to throw it away. -.^

28th - 29th December 2006

Since it's alr like sooooo difficult for two person to meet up, leave alone three. HAHA. BUT, we finally met up today. Ever since... prom night? I only gave them their x'mas present today. Haha. Pathetic. I met Samantha on CHRISTMAS DAY itself to exchange our present yet i forgot to bring the present out. LOL! This is the greatest joke on earth! HAHAHA.

Well, this girl got me a very nice brown bag (she knows me -.^) and a bracelet. I seriously love it. Thank you. =)

And Sindy got me an anklet and some candies. Haha. She says that the three of us have the same anklet. So sweeeeeeet of her. =)

In the end, we went to look for Samantha at her workplace and we headed for supper. HAHAHA. Had a great chat and that dumb Sindy says: 'let's go arcade!'

I thought i heard wrongly. LOL! This shows that she dno me. LOL! No lah. Hahahaha. I immediately turned her off! But, Samantha joined her and pulled me there. Okay, i put down my pride and stepped into the so called ARCADE which i've never been before at Yishun GV. This is so NOT ME!!! Nvm, i had fun racing car with them. HAHAHA. So it's still not bad afterall. But seriously, i hate that kinda place. Full of polluted noise and pricking words. However, i bumped into someone i knew there. Okay, that's very cool. Haha. Someone whom i never thought i'll bump into. Haha. =)

Yeap, then home i go. I'm tired tired TIRED!

Oh yah! I wasn't home yesterday night. I left home at like 10pm and headed to Four Seasons to look for my poor Regina with Riena. =(

The poor girl had to even work on her birthday itself. Damned the hotel! Everything was actually a surprise we wanted to gave her but i gave it away in the end caz we didn't know where's the loading bay of Four Seasons to wait for her. HAHA. =X Then we cabbed to Newton Circus for supper. It was another feast. After eating we cabbed to her house. Yes, in the end, three of us squeeeeezed in one bed. Although we were squeeeeeeezed, we were still very cold in the night. Haha. The squeezy feeling reminded me of our Taiwan trip where the three of us also squeezed in a bed. The feeling's so nice. =) The next morning, we went to hospital to look at her sis's new borned baby. Awwwwww. The baby's uber cuteeeeeeeeeee. Natalie Low C'Yu, sweet right the name? I think it's super sweet lah. She's the newly crowned princess. HAHAHA. =)

Actually, at this point of time, i think i have nothing much to ask for in life. =)

Oh, i'm sick.

Riena's sick.

Jo's sick.

Regina's sick.

We think we knew who passed the bug to us.

I'm down with flu, cough and sorethroat.

ROARRR! I actually gonna go k-ing with Tammy tmr! Fuck the stupid throat!

Bedtime!

Goodnight!

Happy birthday, princess!

2006-12-30T02:43:00.000+08:00

26th December 2006

'FAMILY DAY' gathering

featuring Feng Ling & Jesseca

HAPPY BIRTHDAY REGINA LIU;

my sweetest girlfriend.

royaLprincess

Cake from Swissbake. DELICIOUS!

Finally the princess turned 18.

Feng Ling says she's our ah gong.

Jesseca says she's our ah ma.

This is our big family!

Without the presence of Pamela and Eileen.

Jesseca.

Feng Ling.

MY regina. HAHAHA.

It was another blessed, happy and enjoyable night. Alright girls, next up would be my turn, my BIRTHDAY! HAHAHA.
Dinner ended at like 12am and we couldn't catch the last train. Everybody cabbed home. It's VERY rare. LOL. Thanks LD for the free ride.
I LOVE YOU GIRLS, MY NEWLY CREATED 'FAMILY'. =)

Yayy!

2006-12-20T00:55:00.000+08:00

I wanna post pictures up to show you guys Korea but i'm so lazy so lazy so lazy and have no patience. BOO. Another time perhaps. Hee.

After i came back from Korea i've been lazing around at home and to rest.
To replenish my beauty sleep in fact. HEH!
Only up till today then i went out. Oh! I went to the polyclinic yesterday.
Well, i went to check up my nose under pressure from my family members. Hee. They're just being concern about me =)
It bleed and bleed and bleed non stop like tapwater. -.-"
It can bleed when i'm in the school's parade square listening to announcements.
It can bleed when i'm on the plane having my meal.
It can bleed when i'm in the train talking to my friends.
It can bleed when i'm outside the airport on the phone.
It can bleed when i'm watching teevee at home.
It can bleed when i'm typing on the keyboard. (Not now)
Cool right.
And once it bleed, the minimum time is about ten mins non stop.
Maximum time is about 20mins non stop too and everytime when it bleeds, it's ALOT.
All the poor blood. I'd rather donate it to those who needs it than just to the tissues. -.-"
Godmum wanted to go to the doctor with me but i refused. I don't want her/them to know what's wrong with me. Furthermore, i'm being referred to the hospital for further and more in depth check up by the polyclinic. It sounds serious. Hmmm. Actually i'm quite afraid but well, if i am destined to die, that's my fate right? =)
Okay back to today. Hehe.
I met up Riena and we went around walking in town and to also pass her the korea bought stuffs. Some very lame yet cute things i bought. Hahaha =D
I got her a pen from Korea for she's one who writes non-stop and she said that she's gonna use it for exams. -.-"
Korea's maggi mee. MUAHAHAHAHA! Since she loves Korea so much and yet she didn't get the chance to go, i got her one. =X
And the rest are more sensible things. Hahahaha.
And ARGHHHHH. It's raining cats and dogs everywhere and i'm always bound to get wet. I always carelessly step on puddles on water and tadah, i'm wet!
I don't like to carry an umbrella out! It takes up space in my bag and also TROUBLESOMEEEEE! BOO =(
But well, i'm meeting my sweetest girlfriend, REGINA tmr. Hehehe.
i AM excited okay! I think we're gonna spend 2006 X'Mas tgt also. WAHHHHH! How nice. YAYY! LOVES x987987897642348454275675
Tmr we're gonna have dim sum, shopping, stemboat... EXCITED! LOL
But BOO. I had KFC today and Leslie said that KFC is fattening! Nvm, i will fast the day after tmr. LOL
Alright, back to my show!

Goodnight people!
LOVES! <3

2006-12-17T17:29:00.000+08:00

SAMANTHA TAY LI CHING NEVER WEAR HER BRA & PANTY!!! =D

Hahaha. Not true lah. We're just fooling around. Well, see her blog and you'll know. -.^
Now that i'm back, we can all three go out and have fun again! MISSED YOU TOO ASSHOLE! (X

I'm back!

2006-12-17T16:35:00.000+08:00

I'm back home! It's been two days alr! Heh!
Well, Korea was not very fun afterall.
But a beautiful incident took place in the midst of my trip. <3
That's what that made the whole trip meaningful, other than that, it kind of sucked.
Well, photos will be posted up soon and my prom pics part 2. Hahaha.

I had a pleasant surprise yesterday. =)
BeeLay, my uber sweet frend dropped by my house while she passed by.
I felt warmth and touched.
It's like so thoughtful and nice of her.
We've all grown up. =)
BeeLay, if you're reading this, i just wanna say that i really treasure you, my friend.
I'm glad that we had a reunion and i hope that this friendship last and grows stronger as it goes by. Let's go abroad tgt soon! Heh! =D

in korea

2006-12-11T21:34:00.001+08:00

yeah, i'm in korea.
it's been like going to four days alr.
yet i didn't really enjoy myself.
1. They sell very nice things yet UNaffordable.
2. Their food don't really suits me.
3. I get sick and tired of scenery and sight seeing.
4. Communication break down, i always have to act like a clown to communicate.
5. I hafta wake up damn early in the morning.
The best thing should be just the cold weather cum the nice and grand hotels that we kept changing every two days. This are the only two things.
i even felt like shit and so humiliated now.
Fuck! i just feel like going back home now.
i wanna be with my friends! =(
four more days to go.
just so bless me lah. Amen.

my mood fouled,
a fuckened mood!

Korea!

2006-12-08T02:40:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow and i'll be gone.
Kind of looking forward to the trip. The snow, the shoppings, the food, the culture...
Korea here i come!
Once again, i want your blessing.

Monday
I met up my primary school times khaki, beelay!
It's been ages since we last went out. Four pathetic years i think. Boo.
And all we did that day was merely eating marathon. =D
But of course we shared about our lifes over the year also. I had the "good ol' days" feel. I like. =)
We started off with Village and proceed to Bakerzin (i just love there) then to Balcony and to the Hong Kong Cafe. LOL
A bloated and filling day.
We've definitely had tonnes of fun!

Tuesday & Wednesday
VBS day! Fortunately Tuesday i was feeling alright.
However, things were different on Wednesday. I didn't feel good. Not at all. My mood sucked the whole day! For i was... not say hurt but yah. Just like that.
The devils are acting inside me. They urge me to give up, to lose faith and to say goodbye. My mind was in a whirl! I didn't feel good AT ALL!
It was only slightly better when i was out with my godmum, bro and aunt in the evening.
I finally in my life got myself an iPOD. The iPOD did not really made me felt happier for it's just another 'want' and not 'need' material in life which is merely obtained by money. But no matter what, i still love my iPOD. I waited like dno how many many many thousands of months before i could get a decent music spinner.

TODAY
It was '24' today! I slept at 10am in the morning and woke up at 2pm in the afternoon. I missed the first two slots. I went for the last slot for C8. But before that i met Riena first. Then i strolled to Dhoby Ghaut alone. It was the same today like how it used to be like the other days. The powerful and impacting part came only when Elaine and Roy spoked to me. I felt so comforted, so warmth and so doubt-less now. They told me many things and helped me and pulled me away from the devils. I was sincerely and truly touched. I think He heard me. =)

Btw, Pst spoke to me today also! I'm darn happy! =D

TOMORROW
My night would be spent on the plane. Just miss me will do and BLESSINGS, BLESSINGS still BLESSINGS!

Whoo!

2006-12-04T00:26:00.000+08:00

I'm sooo packed. But i loved the feeling of being packed. I'm fully booked this week, no more free dates. Hahahaha. -.-"
Weekend was thoroughly fun and enjoyable.
But apart from all these funs, what i need now is sleeeeeeep.
I haven't had good sleep for long alr! I can never wake up on time for my dates.
I'm always late, not on time and never am i early. I always keep everybody waiting.
Sorry people.
Thank you to the people who made my day today but i dno you guys name. =(

My phone's adpater to the desktop harddisk is down. Damned the shit! My desktop's been giving me problems ever since it's de-hospitalised. I'm losing my patience over this damned thing and kept on getting fustrated! I've got so much pictures in my phone that i wanna blog here. Anyone, buy me a card reader? Teehee!

And One big news! I'm flying off to Korea this coming FRIDAY!
I want your blessing. (:

ps. i missed my two dearly sisters, regina and riena. :(

Goodnight people.

I'm tired already

2006-12-01T23:54:00.000+08:00

I finally got tired. Ain't i great? Heh! Since the end of exams i haven't rested or had a good sleep okay! I've been practically going out to have fun everyday. Anw, i dreads to stay at home.
But i dreads it even more when i go out peniless.

Tuesday, i finally met up denise. Sweets! I'm late again. I remembered everytime i met her, i'm never on time, let alone early. But come to think of it, we hadn't met for a year already. That's bout 365days alright. Catched The Material Girls in Cineleisure and had lunch together.
It feels so great talking to her after such a long time. We've had so much to share. Our lil lil secrets. Hah! We're gonna meet up again before X'mas arrives to exchange pressie. Ain't we loving? Heh! Loves!

Yesterday, i was supposed to go for the amazing race with YunKwang and guys. I did turned up. We were supposed to meet at Dhoby Ghaut you see and in the end, when i reached Dhoby Ghaut, emotions stirred up and i wasn't feeling good, at all. Hence, i took the train back to Khatib. All the way from Dhoby Ghaut > Somerset > Orchard > Newton > Novena > Toa Payoh > Braddell > Bishan > Ang Mo Kio > Yio Chu Kang > Khatib.
Sorry guys. And i went home and slept the whole afternoon. Cool right? Partly was also because that i was too exhausted alr. Heh!

Today, i met up with Ayu at PS. I'm late once more. I really hafta change my habit. =X And before i met him, Samantha Tay came to look me up and she accompanied me to take the train to Yio Chu Kang and she U-turn back to Yishun. How lame. -.-" Well, back to topic. I had a hunch i'm gonna bump into one of them there, and true enough, i bumped into YangYi. Well, had lunch with Ayu and chatted for some time. Hmmm. I didn't had much energy left so after some time, i head home. Oh! He's also one whom i haven't met for about a year. Heh!

I'm practically tired physically. But i'm still jumping alive mentally. I'm feeling happy and vibrant these two or three days, right, SAMANTHA. Hahaha. You know why. -.^
I'm gonna be busy again for the coming weekend. Cheers peeps!
Enjoy the coming Saturday and Sunday. (:

Back to my 'gung'.

Razzmatazz

2006-11-30T23:54:00.000+08:00

Razzmatazz

An evening of glamours and glitz

27th Nov 2006

M Hotel

7pm to 12mn

They are my reason in school, my secondary school journey stars and my cannot-do-without.

They filled the place of my besties, my sisters, my pals, my good friends, my listeners, my darlings... a part of my life!

Mdm Shah, my form teacher for two years! Someone who equipped me with all the Mao ZeDong, Hitler and all the European history knowledge. (;

Ms Tang, my Physics teacher! Someone who's always willing to stay back for my sake to clear my doubts, however, my Physics still sucked like shit! Sorry teacher. =X

The most 'ah beng' teacher i've ever met in all my school life! Mr Kenneth Chye, a super great teacher to me! (He look abit goondoo here. =X)
Actually she's abit bias. But i still like her, Mrs Lee, my Pure Geography teacher! One and only in school. (:

My POA teacher, Mrs Lyvenne Chong. She's the most poor thing teacher i've seen! (:
Mrs Vannan, we must always run when we see her else our earrings, necklaces... would be hers. =D

Mr Shaiful! The four angels of 2EE were named by him for we gave him innumerable troubles! (Short of an angel -.-")
Actually, we love him alot! (:

Yiru, the prom king on the night. -.^Lathashini, the prom queen of the night. (:

Felicia Chia, my best gossip and secrets partner in class! (:

Jeremy, chairman of our class, 4EC! He's so silly that always makes me laugh like shit in class! He says that Sindy, Samantha and i are his great entertainment! -.-"

My beloved classmate, Jennmark! He rocks in floorball/hockey! (:
My precious good friend, Lim Hung Kit! We share secrets okay! -.^
Do i still needa intro? (Candid shot by Mr Evan Toh)

We're all sisters. Caz she's Samantha's sister, Cassendra! Hahaha! -.^
TihYong and us, he says he felt honoured. LOL! =D

My sweetest malay classmate, Syafizah! She's so great in floorball/hockey and also someone who never fails to lend me a helping hand when i'm in need! (:
Trudy, my schoolmate since primary one. Soon to go seperate ways. She's a pre-u student wannabe. The journey's gonna end here. :(
My classmate since primary one to six and schoolmate in secondary school, Ivy! Well, we're gonna part soon. She's one of the top genius in NSS, naturally pre-u's her choice. :(

Zul, my classmate. (:

Mahes! He always cracks funny funny joke in class! LOL!

DOWN AT THE DANCE FLOOR! IT'S PARTY TIME!

When the clock strucks twelve, everybody's back to cinderella.

We'll go seperate ways, live in our own new world, do our own things.

Everything's gonna come to an end.

No more assembly, no more morning talk by Mr Yoonus, no more skipping of lessons, no more scolding teachers, no more of hiding in the toilet, no more sleeping in class, no more mugging for exams, no more muthu!, no more detention, no more many many many things. I may not have treasured every minutes and seconds in school but these're still beautiful memories created and kept inside about this school and me.

Northland Secondary School, a place where i spent four years in.

The ugliest and most beauteous memories in my sixteen years of life were all linked to the school.

These memories were what that made me doesn't regret into coming to this school at this point of time. There's still one more event to go before we really really come to an end.

There are some teachers whom i'd hope to see but didn't turn up at prom.

Mrs Ho, Mr Yoonus, Mr Willie Tan, Mdm Ho, Mdm How...

The last event, the day where results are release. :(

How i felt for prom? Well, i went to prom with a peaceful heart. :)

Without any grudges or unhappiness.

Forgive and forget every unhappy chapters caused by people in school and i really felt very happy during that evening. :)

Ever since he marked the end of our chapter, prom night was the happiest day from then onwards. I truly enjoyed every bits of it.

Prom night'06 and Secondary three camp'05 were the two happiest event in my secondary school walk. :)

I'll miss 4EC and everybody. There's so much for me to name.

And oh! The video played during the dinner was really very tear-jerking. :')

P.s. There're more photos. However, i haven't got them all yet. :(

A happy Saturday

2006-11-26T02:34:00.000+08:00

It's another simple and happy Saturday. =)
I enjoy the simple-ness and the loves within it.

Well, i had breakfast with Janet in the morning. I just enjoy the feeling of having breakfast.
Caz it livens up my day and it seemed like i'm starting the day well. It'll then carry'on bringing me further lucks in the day. -.^

I'm still not prepared to say what i did in the afternoon. But well, i felt peace and calmness. It's getting more powerful each time. I could feel it more in depth. Thank you. =)

In the night, i met up with my relatives for settling the Korea trip stuffs. And yeah, we're one family. They won't harm me. =) Thus, i can be like a kid when with them. You know, they always take extra care of us, the 'children'. Haha. It's different from going out with frends where you hafta be independent. Yeap, this makes me happy too. =)

and now, i feel like going to bed alr but my bed is in a total mess. My room is haywired. My stuffs are all over my room. The floor, bed, chair... Everywhere. Ohmygoodness.
But i'm still happy for the day.

Tmr will be better.
My sorethroat is still sore-ing. I couldn't speak this morning and stupid Tammy's so happy about it. Idiot! LOL!

I'm gonna meet Janet tmr and hey! I'm getting my iPOD Nano tmr as well! *JUMPS*

GOODNIGHT! -.^

Smiles!

2006-11-25T01:43:00.000+08:00

It's good to maintain it this way.
I'm feeling very lively, happy and occupied these days. =)
Ever since the end of exam, i've been packed with events and things going on that i didn't even have time to sleep. Really! Although i may be tired, but i'm happy with what i am right now.
It's so much drastic better than life during exam period.

I reached home last night at 5am in the late night/early morning.
Caz it was Kiat's birthday yesterday! So weijie, yunkwang and me, we went to drop him a surprise. =)
It was another expected enjoyable session caz they're the most un-harmful people whom i've known. Yesterday night was quite powerful i should say.
And there was 2 cats fighting very fierce opposite us. It was hilarious man! They were really fierce especially their 'mew mew' sound and when they flew up in the sky to fight! LOL! It was an eye opener!
I was dead when i reached home and went to bed without bathing. Yucks! I was too tired to bathe practically.
Thus, i overslept in the morning when i was supposed to meet my dearest girl, Regina at 1.30pm. She knew me. Afterall we're as close as sisters for four years. Haha. She knew that i'd be late and i was really late! I woke up at 1.30 when i was supposed to reach Somerset by 1.30pm. Cool! Haha!
It was a tiring day! She's still the best accompanyment among all! Nothing to hide, nothing to be afraid of and nothing to lie to. The most comfortable person i be with. =)
Well, both our feets turned wobbly and it hurts like nothing else! It was PAIN PAIN PAIN!
Hmmmm. We pampered ourselves with food today instead of materials.
Breakfast cum lunch (2.30pm): Jack's place!
Tea break (5pm): Bakerzin!
Dinner (10pm): Food Republic =( (I had no money left! So we ate like a beggar for dinner! HAHAHA)
But Bakerzin was really good! Especially the profiteroles they serve! It was heavenly! Yeah, and it was also because that it was too heavenly, the chocolate made my throat suffer now. The chocolate was too powerful! LOL! I'm having quite a serious sorethroat now. =(
Well, it doesn't matter lah!

Tmr i'm once again packed till night time. Whoo!
I'm gonna go for steamboat for supper with my friends, Sindy, Priscilla and Yunkwang!
Eat and eat non-stop! LOL!
Good gracious!

I'm not anticipating for prom night at all. Boredom!

Well, check out our sweet loving picture! -.^

Back from camp!

2006-11-23T01:47:00.000+08:00

Alright, Gina's back from youth camp!
Cheers! LOL! -.^
Practically i am dead beat! Well, i was just a day camper not a night camper. Haha.
But i'm already so tired and night campers they must be haywired. Lol.
Okay, camp was overall quite relaxed and fun. Much less what i expected it to be.
Today's amazing race was fun!
Haha! We went to Serangoon's interchange to film a mime, SengKang to take the sengkang mrt station picture and Clarke Quay to take the picture of the obese bird and Sir Stamford Raffles. Oh my goodness! LOL! There was another fateful place we went. LITTLE INDIA! LOL! *BANGWALL* It was practically god damn sm*lly there. I nearly suffocated! The air there is really polluted! Hahaha! And it was funny if you managed to see how my teammates and i gasp for air. HAHAHA! Kill me, i will not stay there! LOL!
Yes, i'm a racist!
The amazing race took place under the scorching hot sun and we had to run and run all over like crazy! All were almost dehydrated but fun you know! -.^
Teamwork! Hahaha! Although the sun was merciless, but luckily it did not pour. That'll be worse than the big big sun. Haha! It only poured when we return to camp. What a close shave!
Well, blah blah blah.
Then during the night time, all of us, weekiat, yangyi, yunkwang, Teah, Clement, Gerad, weijie and me, we went to have supper/dinner at newton circus. LOL! It was so funny lah! Okay anyway, they are the most holy and un-harmful people i've known. =)
I'm super tired.
I need my bed now.
Goodnight!

Start of freedom

2006-11-21T00:26:00.000+08:00

Today's the official end of battle and start of freedom!
Ended the paper at 9am. Hahaha.
How hard before i can really reach this stage.
Ten years of education ain't easy man.
Well, life moves on. =)

It was a fun and adventurous day!
During the afternoon, Priscilla, Yunkwang, Sindy and me, we went to Marina Sq for celebration!
Well, all four of us were practically bloated and stuffed! Haha! It was fun though.
After that, i parted with them and cabbed down alone to Chinatown to meet mummy.
Mummy asked me to accompany her to buy some textiles so i went. Hehe.
After that, mummy drove me to town. Mummy went Lucky Plaza to settle her own stuffs and i headed down to Far East Plaza to get my own stuffs and to meet Leslie there after his school.
Then only my adventutous day starts! -.^
We walked around Far East then for a lil while and left after getting my stuffs. Headed to Taka to look for old colleagues. All were busy attending to customers. =(
Leslie said this which made me think that it's quite true 'you mei you gan jue hao xiang hui dao lao jia?' Hahaha. Indeed, a year have past.
After that, we went o Bugis, wanting to get my stuffs. Fuck! I couldn't find. So poor us, our legs had already turned wobbly and stomach was calling. Thus, we did a super duper cool thing. We went to take a cab and cabbed down to Changi Airport! Any idea why? LOL! Just to eat Macdonal! LOL! As if Bugis don't have. -.-"
Sommore going to airport at that time includes the extra surcharge of 2bucks! Hahaha!
And we really really went to eat Macdonald's alright. But the taxi that we boarded, the uncle sucks a big time! He's a dirty yellow old man who has no brains and was so money minded money faced idiotic old and freaky ah peh! He shared with us how he used to go to East Coast Park to have SEX with his wife! OMG! And more and more. WTH! He just freaked me off totally! Furthermore, the road was in a jam. Fuck! His nonsense was non-ending. Atrocious!
Okay back to my airport. Haha. After eating, walk walk around for awhile and we went to the bus interchange to see which bus to take to head to where for more fun. Lol!
But the journeys were all long and tedious so we boarded 858. We wanted to head for McRitchie to explore the place there caz it's gonna be pitch dark there! Thrilling right? Dark to an extent that you can't even see your fingers or even anything. But well, after much consideration on the bus, i decided not to go. Caz, I DON'T DARE! LOL! Not because of the dark but i'm afraid of seeing 'things'. Hahaha! I've heard too much horror stories recently that it really somehow left a deep impression inside me. So i decided not to give it a try. Maybe another time when i get mentally prepared. LOL! Then we wanted to go to Woodlands then to Jurong then to Harbour Front and then home. Lol! But it was too late alr. By then there won't be anymore last bus/train for us. The ultimate aim was to go to the tip and end of Singapore. Hahaha! Lame! So we took the journey from airport to Woodlands interchange then alight and board back the same bus and wanted to return to airport. BUT, on the way, mummy called. She summoned me back home. ARGHHH! So i ended my adventure here. LOL!
But today's fun was much less expected from previously. I thought it'll just be another day. But the fun starts from 9am till 11pm! Cool!
I felt wanted by my friends all over again =)

I'M GOING FOR CAMP TMR!!!

Goodnight!

Vivo City and Town!

2006-11-19T12:45:00.000+08:00

To me, it's all over!
Papers are all over! =))
But i dno why, i didn't feel very very super happy but just yeah, dun needa mug anymore.
But well, it's good that it's over.

Friday night, Samantha called me say her daddy went out and she can slip outta house. Haha!
So we just went walk walk and stroll around.
The she was given away and she rushed home. LOL
How dumb right?

Saturday, we went out again! LOL
We went VivoCity.
Finally after so long from all the hearings and the obstruct from exams.
When we reach there our reactions were like 'uhhar, yeah, big'
Then... 'here got wat?' , 'like nothing' , 'aiya! we go town gai gai better!'
Then we left for town! YEAH!
And i grabbed lotsa things in town. =D
Who cares whether am i broke.
LOL

Then i went home feeling dead.
I am super super tired!
My shopping stamina declined tremendously!
All because of exams and i didn't train for 3 months! LOL
Slack slack awhile here and there then i went to bed!
I was simply very very very tired.
The past few days i slept for like less than 6 hours each night.
Either caz of exam or i went out in the late night to have fun! HEEE.
Slept till like 1.40am and i was woken up by calls.
'GINA! STOP SLEEPING! COME OUT NOW!!! QUICK! DON'T MAN TUN TUN!'
LOL! then wat. Wake up wash up and out i go!
But i still couldn't take it, i came back at 4am. SLEEP again.
All the way till now. =)

I've scheduled myself very packed for the coming holiday. Just in case i go bonkers again. =X
it's not easy that i've felt well again. =)
After papers on monday, i'm gonna go celebrate with my classmates and go gai gai again! =))
Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday i'm going camp!! -.^
Friday, a secret. =D
Saturday, church. Note, i'm not a christian.
Okay, till here. I havent plan further on yet.
I am anticipating to my Korea trip.
I wanna leave Singapore!!!

Christmas is coming!

:)

2006-11-14T20:55:00.000+08:00

I felt happier today.
=)

How to feel happy?

2006-11-12T20:09:00.000+08:00

Yes, finally the more important papers are OVER.
I'm really really glad.
Now i'm just left with POA, History and other mcqs.
The end of Maths paper 2 made me felt really relaxed and a load off my mind.
However, as i was doing all the papers, i felt so confidence-less.
It was tough, tougher than past years.
Especially Physics and English paper 1.
Physics is confirm a gone case. I completed the whole paper in 20mins time.
I had the feeling which i shouldn't have.
That kinda feeling was like as though i am sitting for those minor class test whereby i don't even feel like attempting the questions, just go to sleep. Fuck!
What a waste for my chemistry. How i wished i were a pure science student, then i'd give up Physics and concentrate on Chem. Ya yah! Blah blah blah!
I never fail to panic before every paper starts. It's just a matter how hard i panic.
O levels wasn't like what i had imagined.
The kinda O levels i had imagined was a relaxed one. I must be prepared many days before and the night before i'll be feeling calm and watching tv at home.
But it's not the case. I'm chiong-ing like hell and even had to wake up early in the morning to do last min revision. Arghhh!

After exam on friday, i went to have a big feast to relax. It was a treat anyway. :)
It's only after so long and so hardly that i get to go out, so i called all my friends.
Regina, Riena, Janet and Samantha.
Well, not surprised you know. None is willing to go out the next day. :)
There may be some reasons behind, well, i just couldn't be understanding.
Because, who's there to understand me? So why should i right?
This world is never fair.
Someone told me not to bother and over think about some things that ain't worth it. Yah, maybe these are things that ain't worth my broodings but i just can't help it.
I'm a super negative person. If anything strikes me, the matter would just get complicated by me when it's just so simple, THEY ARE NOT FREE TO GO OUT!
You know, when things comes to me, it's really not just so simple as to 'they are not free to go out only'. Friends might have changed, the environment had changed. It changed all of us and everything. From ionic bond's electrostatic forces slowly becoming to covalent's bond weak intermolecular forces now.
All the emotionals stirred up and the hard core feeling escalates each time i think about it.
I wonder, who's there to share my happiness with me? Let alone woes.
I kept thinking, who'll celebrate my 20th Nov with me? Who'll celebrate the upcoming x'mas and new year with me?
I just feel so pathetic. There're frends who can be with me, i know. But i just hate to put up a fake smile and say 'hey! how've u been doin'? how's life?' i just wanna be what i can be infront of my frends, i don't wanna act. But i can be real good in that. Hyprocrite. :)
Well, it's my up-coming occupation few years down the read wat.
So pple, guess what?
I slept through the night. From Friday night or rather saturday morning, 6.30am all the way to saturday night, 7.30pm. See! Another day's gone! I don't have to brood over things. I just jolly well hafta go to Macdonald and meet up YunKwang to study. And yes, life goes on like this.
That night was the fatal one. My emotions escalates to the maximum and in the end, i broke down in Macdonald infront of Tammy. Hpwever, whatever it is, i really felt better after that.
Tammy said this, what are friends? They come and go. But your O levels cert will not desert you, friends WILL. I agree. So why depend on friends? Furthermore, worse if they are only those who shares happiness with you only. So who's there to share your woes?
Independent is the key to success.

Today, surprisingly, i went to the church. I just wanna feel more relax and calm and peaceful. Yes, that place was absolutely right for me.
It was really amazaing to see how people worship jesus and god.
The pastor's message today was really everything about my situation i felt.
Friendship and self control.
We should learn to believe in friends and be a believer and not isolate ourselves.
I think i had a hard time absorbing his words.

Mugging season

2006-11-04T19:12:00.000+08:00

The mugging season is coming to an end soon. :)
Life can be regained in 2 more weeks time.
Tonight's the last push and tml will be a relax kind of day. Keep myself mentally prepared and i hope i don't panic when i see the paper. Social studies especially. Fuck the paper! So what i'm a humanities student. I don't like that subject!
Even though the mugging season was tough, but afterall, i managed to endured through it. Be it struggling within myself, ranting away the whole day, feeling mad, feeling sad, it's all gonna be over soon.
But i'll also wanna say, despite the tough 3 months, i made very good friend through the mugging. Not say made but even more strongly bonded. Not covalent but ionic bond -.-" chemistry sick! YunKwang and Felicia Chia. I really hit it off very well with these two very nice people and i'm glad even though it's the near end of our secondary school life. Being late it better than never. :)

Well, i really havent had enough sleep. approximately 5hours a day is way lesser than my usual's. I've been reaching home at 5-6am everyday in the morning and go out again at around 12pm in the afternoon. I lost touch with my family. :(
Today was even better, i reached home at 8.30am. I am dead beat beat beat beat beat beat...

Lastly, i hope that you'll be back safely yz.

Anticipating for the fateful day: 20th November 2006

God bless.

One more week

2006-10-29T03:47:00.000+08:00

Hmm well, i did felt better these few days.
Please do not take happiness for granted.
Caz it comes as go as quick as a season changes. Appreciate it when it comes caz it's shortlived.
Sincerely thanks to you, my friend, who so happened to be there at the correct time when i felt damn lousy. Luckily you were there to lead me back the right track before some unbearable consequences stuffs were done. :)

How does it feel like to be kept in the dark about something for 1 1/2 year?
It ain't something bad but good fortunately.
Haha. In drams, there's always scenario like someone found their long lost family/relative... right? I found mine. Not family but relative. It's hilarious man! Everything was so dramatic. That 'relative' of mine was actually a very close friend of mine. Well, i was kept in the dark for so long. It's quite blessed to know that somehow that very close friend of mine is actually related to me moreover flowing that few lil' percentage of blood inside us. Cool eh? Call this a secret, caz even my parents doesn't even know about it. Sounds not right? It doesn't matter, it just concerns me. LOL

Ck's in the army! Fuck! I have nobody to whine and scream to now. Damn it! Hope you're doing fine inside, bitch. Sad to say, because of O levels we didn't get to meet up before you go in. Fuck the exam lah! Holyshit!

And yeah, O's in 1 weeks time. I have no idea whether should i feel happy or sad. The faster it comes and ends, the better it is. But i haven't got myself prepared for it mentally and academically. How? Die. I wanna go ngee ann poly! Tp also can lah. I think i've no rights to choose the school but rather let the school choose me lah. -.-"

I was so touched by this friend of mine, yunkwang:
It was at the middle of the night, 3.30am, and i was walking back home.
I met him along the way but we were going different directions.
But there was a drunkened man near us and was blabbering some nonsense.
But didn't sense anything wrong about him hence i continued walking home.
When i was home, i received a msg.
Sender: YunKwang
'just wan ask whether you've reach home le ma cause just now that guy got problem.'
Isn't it thoughtful of him?
This is the kind of friend i respect and remininsce even if we're all gonna part 1month later.

I've temporarily terminated keyboard lesson. :(
1 month of endurance before everything returns to normal.
My vocal lesson, keyboard lesson...
and soon-to-take-up guitar lesson are all on the way.
All my friends, see you people soon.
Wait for me!
3 weeks, it's a blink of eye.

Len, act fast before it's too late. It's ending soon. You know what i mean.

Alright, bedtime. Nitenite (i think it sounds more cosy this way, isn't it?).

airport

2006-10-24T23:18:00.000+08:00

i spent my day in the airport with xinmin.
hmmm. well, had a talk with that lil' girl.
we always like talking to each other since young.
and it's still the same for now.
i felt a lil better today.
at least better than nothing.
thank you leslie, who always show concern to me like a big bro.
thank you very much.
i appreciate your thoughts.
he's the only frend who constantly msgs me to ask how am i doing and remind me my responsibility and aim in life.
he never fails to lead me back to the right track.
thank you, brother.

that's all for today.
i'm dead beat.

What's more for me to hold on in life?

2006-10-23T23:29:00.000+08:00

suddenly i felt so terribly hurt.
someone whom i had always recognize as my bestest bud, my sweetest girlfriend, my closest friend turned out to be the one.
out of a sudden, i have this question for myself, do i even still have any true frends with me?
i finally understand when people tells me nobody can be true to anybody in this world.
i dun used to believe caz i thought i was quite fortunate that i had her.
even though we seldom meet up nowdays due to our hectic schedules, but we still made the effort to like send a simple msg or a simple call.
maybe what i am expecting of a true frend is way too demanding.
so does it meant that what we've had together last time were just rubbish?
our shoppings, our gossips, our talks, our taiwan trip, our scoldings from mummy, our 'tori karaggae set with gyoza and mayonaise and chilli sause please' were just like any other odinary frend in life? now i think i just sounded like some bitches who bitch around with some other odinary frend. like those sluts you know? whatever. i'm used to it.
if people know me deep enough, they'll know what i've did. yes, even some of my frends claimed my actions were those of a bitch. well, i can't be bothered anymore.
once, there was a frend who told me this: 'it was you who can't hold your emotions, happiness and unhappiness'. i admit. maybe because of this, i tends to pour everything to my closed ones. maybe i didn't even consider the fact that would they even wanna listen to me? i just took it for granted. it's my fault. i'm too self-centered.
O levels' suffocating me. moodswings' torturing me. the amount escalates each time, each night. emotions' killing me. my fucking emotions changes faster than the seasons change.
another frend told me that he could be looked up if i want. but i strongly said that i hope to pass go through this hurdle myself. it's my problem, i should resolve it myself. caz i know that not everytime when i needed someone, someone would be there.
but now... i am so fragile.
i just wanna prove to myself i can. but why are there so much external and internal factors that's bringing me down?

gina's true frend,
1. absolutely no secrets hidden. imagine there's secrets between you and your frend, what's that like? i dun like it. i dun feel secure and comfortable and relax. so she's really a frend who knows practically everything of me. inside out. thats why i'm hurt.
2. someone who gives me the priority as much as i give her/him. well, time constraints. there's nothing i could do about it.
i'm not blaming her. she's not at fault. but rather i think i'm at fault. i demanded too much. but that's just my way of leading my life, my character, my thinkings...
i really have the mindset that i just need one, the rest i can't be bothered.
but well, i'm really wrong.
i really thought i had it all you know. well, it was just my one sided thinking.

i felt so lonely suddenly.
i lost my time.
i lost music.
i lost my frend.
i lost my frend.
i lost my beloved.
what more i have?
family?
i reach home at 11pm, leave home at 7am everyday.
the moment i reach home i'm alrd dead beat and after showering, it's bedtime.
so does this also meant that i lost my family?
in short, i think i lost my life.

i thought, i thought it was a gift from heaven.
there's so many people of i know yet i met a person who resembles you among all.
i just got so entranced.
i thought he might be sent by heaven to amend for your deeds.
but he's innocent.
he is he. you is you.
both of you belonged to the different realm.
i shouldn't even think it that way.
and now i'm in deep shit.
it's hard for me to come out again.
i hate it!

this is the first time in my life i felt that i had nothing left with me.
the more i should work hard and earn big bucks.
money and all the materials would be my bestest bud, my closest pal.

wish me all the best.
i think janet would be so disgusted of her beloved cousin now.
everything made me think that even family are so far from me.

i can't help it but teared.

I need some lucks!

2006-10-20T23:58:00.000+08:00

Have been real unlucky.
Well, 1. i screwed my O levles Physics pract.
2. my comp screwed me up. it crashed.
3. i spent the money for school fees. i thought it was my allowance. -.-"
now i dno how to dig the money out.

I really dno what to say about my life the past 3 months. It was totally rusbbish and uninnovative.
But i must hang on.
I'm truly glad that i still have frends around me to encourage me and cheer me up.
thank you people. if weren't for you people, i dno how should i survive through.

well, i was so moved.

I did some social studies self wrote essay for checking and to clear some doubts. and when he returned to me, he told me this this:
Mr Yoonus(my ss teacher): Gina, although for this whole year, the first 3 months i had to catch ur attention so hard for you to get involve in my lessons. and during the mid year, you were sleeping through all my periods. and now, you run away from my class. but if you continue working like this you can surely get A1.
I was soooo encouraged and motivated by his words. I dno why but i seemed to be a condemned case to him previously but now he actually said such encouraging words. I somehow somewhat felt so touched. At least he can see the effort that i've put in and he did not say i can get disctinction or B3. He said A1. Caz disctinction can be A2 or A1. Well, i really hope do well for ss. :)

My comp crashed. Sickening! My only entertainment is gone.
It's my bro's comp that i'm using.

FUCK LAH!!!!!!!!

There's more to come in life

2006-10-16T15:10:00.000+08:00

Gradually, i'm losing all of my energy.
The urge to study and to practice is decreasing.
But good grades don't just come in vain so Gina, whatelse but study. Fuck!

Sometimes, i really don't understand what human beings are thinking.
One after another all are one of a similar kind.
Why won't there be any special or odd one?
They really belonged to the same species of bastards.
I hate it!
To hell man!

And oh i've actually got a new plan in life after exams.
Well, i just wanna keep it in suspense first.
Caz i might not be even carrying it out.
It's just a plan. But quite possible actually.
Perhaps, carrying out the plan would really nurture me into a more independent and tougher girl.
But, on the same time, i'll lose my dreams. Singing won't be a part of me anymore.
It's serious matter.
Hmmmm. I'll see about it.

Lastly, i really have no idea what's up with all the industrialisation and sustaining develeopment in the social studies syllabus!
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!
Why do we have to study that when it has got nothing to do with us.
The fucking dead and dry chapter.
I dun wanna study. I wanna leave town!!!

Get a life!

2006-10-10T22:13:00.000+08:00

Since there're so many inventions in the world, why ain't there any to make one happy?
Leave aside estacy.
In the first place, why are there even unhappiness? Life is so short. Why do we still needa experience unhappiness?
Sometimes i just felt so helpless.
I dno how should i describe the struggle within myself to pull through and carry on with this life.
Yes, i need not worry about being peniless or having a shelter over my head like any adults does.
But so? I really really dun like to be down.
Friends always tells me that 'don't be so pessimistic'
yah yah yah! how do they even understand and everything is not so simple by just simply saying 'don't be so pessimistic' so dun give me bullshits like this okay, my friends!
I havent had the thinking that i felt like dying since ermmm, sec 1?
Caz i know, that's childish. But now, the feeling just came gushing on me and i really can't hold on anymore.
It's just like everything i do seemed to be so unsuccessful.
NOTHING makes me feel glory or proud of. Nothing!
I can't even sing. I miss singing.
O Level's refraining me from tonnes of stuffs and i hate it!
Sometimes i just felt like giving up lah. Just go to the exam hall with whatever i know.
I dun want my IRM anymore, i dun wanna earn big bucks anymore. Just spare me.
But... arghhhh!!! :'(
Everything is not going like how i wanted it to be.
I dun want a failing subject on my O's cert.
But it's like POA is a bound to flung subject.
I want an A1 for any subject that i can get.
But it's like i only attained the higest A2 for my mother tongue.
The rest, hopeless distinction case.
My frend says, it is not impossible when effort is made.
RUBBISH! effort is made but i see nothing!
i just dun feel like attending school and taking exam anymore.
Just let me rot and die.

I miss singing and my group of singing souls.
To jiaqing: It's not a failure but a glory.
It's not easy to have fought so far so be proud of what you've got.
I'm proud of you!
So are the rest!
Continue shining and we'll all make it one day!
I miss those days and i miss you guys. :(

Korea

2006-10-01T21:45:00.000+08:00

what the fuck! I wasted my weekend! I did not do any studying and i am feeling so guilty now! :'(
O levels are drawing nearer and nearer and nearer! God bless me.
But i actually planned my life after O's alrd. Haha.
I went to the Natas fair over the weekend and i'm heading for Korea in December!
Not very happy exactly. Well, i didn't really like Korea that much but anyway, since i'm being sponsored so just go lah. LOL
Gonna go experience the snow and the beautiful scenery. :)
And of caz their famous ski, spa, hot spring, water games, wearing their traditional costume and blah blah blah. I'm staying over a 4 different hotels/resorts in 8 days. Lol
It's some sorta 5-6stars hotel and resort sommore. Then i'm gonna move here and move there. And still gotta take their domestic plane to fly from one place to another within Korea instead of what bus ride or boat ride. It's as if i'm some rich tai tai(s). LOL. Just let me be a tai tai for 8 days. Hahahaha!
But i think the traditional costume thingy sounds so exciting lah! Lol
Think i can demolish the shopping idea alrd.
It's like so god damn freaking expensive. Whatever.

The Taiwan tourism board was also there. So much memories came gushing into my head when i saw the Taiwan itinary and stuffs.
It wasn't a nice feeling. Not at all.
Taiwan, somehow somewhat, i just felt so comfy there. I dno why.
Alright, enough of Taiwan. I really miss everybody there and every places that i've been.

I thought i had lost another frend.
However, that frend returned.
I'm so glad. Very glad. :)

2006-09-30T00:29:00.000+08:00

We went swimming after prelims. One word, GREAT!

Stress were all relieved and let out into the water. LOL

Don't say that i'm childish. I just wanna have fun! And this thingy is really so fun lor. I didn't know somewhere near NSS has this thingy after 4 years staying at that environment. LOL

An unlucky Friday

2006-09-29T23:39:00.000+08:00

Hungkit says it was our honour. Hmmmm. LOL

More like yours, Kit.

Well, i start of the morning with a slight stomach ache. :(
Next head to school and spent half of the day in the hall looking at people receiving awards.
It was GRADUATION DAY. I've graduated! Yah right.
Haven't even sat for the O's. -.-"
Then they talk and talk and talk. I was so bored and my darlings and i started playing. LOL
I was anticipating for the giving out of report books at the end of the day lah! :(
Oh well, as usual my result sucks. I didn't manage to get into any colleges except for institutes.
So i think most likely i'll be going to Millenia Institute for the 3 months/weeks course. Yeap, at least experience what's life in a "jc" is.
I couldn't get into a college caz i am a 23 pointer for L1R5. :(
But well, i knew it from the start and i was already aiming for MI caz i knew even the lousiest jc wouldn't even want me. LOL
18 points for L1R4, merely cleared 2 points from the minimum requirement. Phew!
But initally i thought perhaps even MI might not want me but se-ka-lly i can go in ah! Wahhh! LOL
Anw, this is just what i am gonna do after the release of results. Eventually, poly would be my final choice. MI is just a place of fun for me. :)
I am going KOREA if nothing crops up. Not exactly YEAY but just... yah. I just wanna see snow lah. Snowflakes falling on me. Imagine how nice would the scenery be. Haha.

Actually for prelims, some of the reults were really unexpected. Some i was glad, some not at all.
But of caz, POA is an expected F9 case. Even after moderation it was still F9. -.-"
The only happy thing was i passed my maths! First time in the whole year of 2006 that i passed the bloody subject, MATHS. For people who knows how horrible my maths was, can you believe it? Nvm, i can't believe it either. LOL
However, it was merely a pass. A borderline pass. I want a higher grade for O's! :(
Science, bloody hell! Chemistry: B4, Physics: E8!!! Total: C6, after moderation, C5
Shit one lah! I think uh, Physics and POA are inhuman subjects and only they know me but i dno them. LOL
It's all because of the bloody Physics that pulled my science grades down! To hell with it man! I dun understand a single fucking shit about these 2 thingy. Arghhh!
HELL HELL HELL!

I've been so shag and tired these days. I really hope it will be over soon. O levels adding on with other factors surpressing me, i'm afraid i might just collapse. Everyday i return home with a heavy mind and aged face and a spritless body. Sometimes i just think perhaps i should just give O levels up. Yet it'd affect my life in the future. Hence, i have no choice but to hang on. I've been reminding myself it's gonna be over soon, it's gonna be over soon. But why it still seem so long? :'( Haiz.

Well, after keyboard lesson today when i was in the MRT station, i saw someone familiar. I turned back and found the build familiar and i looked up, AHA! IT WAS LESLIE! Someone i havent seen for long. Perhaps more than 1/2 year and we had a lil chat. Well, i think this would be the only thing that i'm happy about today caz even my beloved music, i couldn't set my mind and concentrate in playing a good piece of music. Arghhhhh!

Fuck it man O Levels!

A Studying Saturday

2006-09-29T23:30:00.000+08:00

Study study study untill she starts kissing me.
LOL!

All this bitch does was just messaging her bastard. -.^

We're both dumb and idiots. -.-"

But afterall, we're still... as loving as before.
Yah right.

29th August 2006

2006-09-29T23:05:00.000+08:00

Samantha Tay! What're you doin! You horny ass! -.^

The feeling cannot be described when a baby's lil hand grab hold tightly onto your finger. I like it! :)

Faking only. He don't allow me to carry him! He'll cry the moment he's in my arms! NOT FAIR!

Bloody Samantha!

hahahahahaha!

What do you call this? Three underage mummy? Hmmm.

Better mood. :)

2006-09-21T15:24:00.000+08:00

Well, finally my mood is better. Get to know of something shocking. Really shocked me. :)
But whatever it is, i am glad. Glad to know that i'm still important to some people.
It's just someone that popped out nowhere. Hmmm. Another pisces i think.
But whatever it is, wait till the end of o levels. :)
Nobody can change my priority now. Except cambridge. LOL!
L-A-M-E

I need to go for a swim! :(
And i'm gonna go tml! :)
I don't care!
To relieve the unwanted stress!

DUMB GIRL

End of prelims.

2006-09-20T16:29:00.000+08:00

It's the end of prelims.
Whether can i make it to MI, i shall see about it next week.
But well, i had no idea why people are getting so excited about it.
Aint the end of prelims mark the start of O levels?

the past

2006-09-17T21:37:00.001+08:00

Nobody would have any idea, how much exactly i yearn to go back to the past.

Just like what i wrote in my prelims exam for English essay, i felt that i was the most fortunate girl in the world. I had nothing to worry about. Not needing to worry for a shelter above my head or other factors in life. And whats most important is i had everything in life. Nothing much that i'd ask for. Not even one thing that i am short of. Including, 'people'.

However, the tittle of the essay was 'despair'. Yes, good things doesn't last long. In fact it's short lived. But because it was so short lived, it reflects its beauty even more. I think.

I've been missing that kinda feeling. It's so hard to search it back anymore, or should i say impossible.
Can somebody just bring me back that feeling?

I give myself 2 more months to be dead, 2 months later, i hope i can be alive when the papers are over. Please bring me happiness 2 months later. Thank you!

-

2006-09-16T02:29:00.000+08:00

arghhhhhhhhhhhh! :'(

11.09.06

2006-09-11T15:38:00.000+08:00

Time flies. Really flies.
1 year had past. Last year's today was a sunday.
I remembered i was in Cineleisure.
Hmmm. Okay, this ain't important anymore.
Well, what's most important is, has everything changed?
He, me, u?
I dno. It seemed like. Hmmm. Let it be.
The start of prelims today. I hope, i really hope i can make it to MI at least.
Then to my PR. Yeap.

Happy birthday to you.

life-less days.

2006-09-02T14:14:00.000+08:00

My life-less days are here.
Caz O Levels are very SOON here too.
Stopped going out, everyday looking at the ten year series makes me wanna puke!
Time passes so swiftly infront of the comp while time passes so slowly infront of the books. :'(
It really sucked!

Well, went to had 馬拉火鍋 with Sindy and Willi on Thursday. Its was fantastic! :)
Superb nice! After that we went for a car spin. From Kallang we headed to Mt. Faber to enjoy breeze and initially they wanted to head for East Coast. But we didn't caz my time was up. My bed was calling me. Lol. Haha. Then i fell asleep in the car. The breeze was terribly nice. Well, the symptoms of a Pisces was shown again. The blah blah blah thinkings and the blah blah blah emotions up the hill. Too bad, i'm just too typical. Next to Changi-dno-wat. The road has no cars and with only lamp poles and lights. Freaky! Then spin here spin there and i was spinned home! HAHAHA!

On Friday, the usual clique went for dinner at Kallang again. This time was Korean 'steamboat'. Oh no! Come to think of it, i'm alil scared already. Haha.

Kind of getting life-less right? My poor lifeeeee.
I HOPE i can post some interesting entry. But can't... :'(

Goodbye.

Stupid shit!

2006-08-27T13:50:00.000+08:00

I have no idea who the fucking hell is CHARMAINE!
Some bloody bitch in the world disgracing all the ladies out there! A bitch who lost her chasity! Anyway, bicthes doesn't have any at all!
She bloody hell took my picture and set it as her display picture in her own MSN window and claims that she wants to be FUCKED!
BLOOOOOOOOOODY HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

P.S. I learnt of this girl from a frend who told me that someone by the name of CHARMAINE was using my picture as her display picture. I was feeling rather wierd. Why would someone i dno even use my picture? So, i got her e-mail add and added her. I waited for many weeks before she came online. Look at our conversation! She fucking hell blocked me in the end i guess. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH! BITCH!

SEE FOR YOURSELF!

understanding is the key to every conflicts.

2006-08-26T22:49:00.000+08:00

Lately, i've been feeling down in the dumps. The feeling really turn me off tremendously.

Conflicts.

Fortunately, halfway through our 'conflicts', but i can see light at the end of the tunnel. :)
Actually come to think of it, every friends in the world do have disputes and unhappiness among themselves. It's just a matter of whether how crucial it is. It's just so habitual among friends.

Most importantly, it depends on one whether he/she has the courage to open up and speak to admit his/her wrongs. And also, having the courage to find the resolution into salaving the friendship. It applies the same in relationship too. Who's willing to take the first step?

Well, from my above account, if you're wondering if any conflicts had surfaced among my friends and i, the answer is yes.
However, we found the antidote to revive our friendship which i thought to be dead in the water earlier on.

Samantha and Sindy. A friend in need is a friend indeed. No doubt for that.
I guess there's no need for me to elucidate what had happened among us. What happened isn't important. What's most important is what we had learnt from it and how should we rectify it.
Remain calm and think for the majority and not only for oneself. This is what Riena taught me when i was wrong in the past. She taught me not to be so self-centered and because of this, things were made easier for me and Samantha this time round.

As a human being, with emotions and senses, we should really learn to be understanding. Because, the one you're facing is also a human being who also have emotions and senses. Even beasts have it too, deep down there. I believe.

I was sincerely moved by the long essay sent by Samantha.

gina chia.

2006-08-19T20:33:00.000+08:00

i've been living for 16years, but i have no idea what am i doing in these 16years of life.
perhaps compared to some, my life would be more fruitful but to some, my life is way more bland.

a useless vocal that doesn't work hard for me
looking at the five working so hard and got through the hurdle
i thought i can take it naturally and accept the fact
i thought i can face it lightly
but i can't
look at them stepping up to another stage in life yet i can only stand at the origin and do nothing
i blame myself for not taking care of myself
resulting everything to be going so un-smoothly
frends around me had to make an extra effort in comforting me i felt so useless
i dont want i really dont want
16 years old
not only having the responsibilty towards the law
even failure is embarassing
what i lost is not only the 1/70 chance
i even lost my confidence
the confidence that wasn't built up easily from the jj's concert performance
it's really as though i had lost my life
i can't do this i can't do that from the surpressing pressure of o levels
what hurts me most is that i cant even continue singing
i dno why i would say this here
samantha told me that her daddy said blogs are meant for people to blog with their happiness not their sadness
caz it's not good for people to learn of your downs
but i really dno
if i dont come here where else or rather who else i can go to
i have got no courage to even speak up what had befall me
i dont type it out here to hope for sympathy or pitys from people
i just wanna say it out very naturally
it's been an unapparent pressure for me all the while :'(

the sky is dark now
i'm feeling very dark too
i felt like leaving for taipei now
where i'm not being pressurized by any factors in life
where heaven can be found
where everyone lives carefreely and truthfully
i wonder, ain't it tiring to live with a mask?

P.s. People out there, please motivate me to study. I'm really not in the mood to study at all.
Countdown: 87 more days to the END of paper
Countdown: 73 more days to the start of paper

:)

2006-08-14T22:33:00.000+08:00

I'm in a rush! And my entry will be short and sweet.

Anyway, the purpose of blogging is to thank my dearest girlfriend, Regina.
She made me two D.I.Y vintage belt!
So sweet right? It's exactly the same as those selling in town you know!
Thanks princess.

I really appreciate it. :)

静静的

2006-08-10T15:18:00.000+08:00

空气里躲着什么
有点浪漫的心动
我偷偷看你
你也偷偷看我
世界上多了什么
好像变得很不同
站在你身边
这一切都好宽阔

我还在等着你
静静的爱我
只要有你陪我
静静的就足够
你也在等着我
静静的温柔就
这样手牵手
静静的看着天空

心里面藏着什么
你只想要让我懂
原来我的梦
也就是你的梦
哦
纸条上写了什么
我好想要听你说
让字字句句
充满我们的笑容

永远要记得那天彼此许下的承诺
瞬间点亮的火花
是我们的拥有

静静的手牵手
是最简单的梦

World of Pisces

2006-08-09T23:45:00.000+08:00

爱与被爱之间，十二星座如何体会爱情的温度，又该怎么享受爱情的浓烈与残忍？如果在爱情角色扮演的的戏码里，可以选择主动或被动，你该如何自处？喜欢享受爱人滋味的是牡羊座、双子座和狮子座；较喜欢被爱感觉的星座是巨蟹座、摩羯座和双鱼座。

双鱼座2/19～3/20
双鱼座的爱情，往往是建构在想象之中，你在爱中感情会比平日更为丰富，心思也就跟随着敏锐起来。你乐此不疲地做着爱情梦，付出感情也像是流水一样地奉献，对你来说，体贴是爱的表现。如果能把爱情看得澄透的双鱼座，就像是一面镜子，清清楚楚地反映出爱情的容颜，对你来说，要想勾勒出爱情的脸，去看一看情人就知道了。

双鱼座想爱人还是被爱？
你当然是想被爱的，甚至可以说双鱼座是为感情而活的。如果说爱是一场抛接球的游戏，你可说多半在等待着对方抛出的球。有被爱的感觉才会让你拥有爱人的勇气，如果没有对象，你也很容易把这份等着送出去的爱，移情作用之下，你把满心的爱都分送给猫和狗，或是一些等着爱的人。

十二星座之 ― 星座最怕
双鱼座-----最怕现实压力

不守纪律的星座学生
谁敢上课睡觉？
天秤座：困了就睡，管他白天还是黑夜？！
射手座：晚上晚累了就利用上课时间补充睡眠。
双鱼座：何时何地都可以做梦，枯燥的讲说也可以成为美妙的催眠曲！

谁总是人在心不在？
双子座：双子座很少安静下来，除非他想别的去了！
摩羯座：喜欢“节省时间”，上课写作业。
双鱼座：想东又想西，人乖乖得坐在那里思绪却到处乱跑。

I'm a pisces.
It's just so true to me. Very true. To an extend that i felt that i'm destined to be born a pisces.

vt.

2006-08-09T00:41:00.000+08:00

I felt i'm living again! :)
I hadn't step into virtuoso for just like one month but it seemed like years to me. I dno if i've said it here but well, mum told me to stop going for vocal lessons and concentrate on 'O's first, thus, i had to stop lesson. Even lao shi told me concentrate on studies first. He told me this again 不要急. I am really very impatience to gain success.
I went Virtuoso and look for lao shi. Feels so nice to be in there again. Even though i'm not going for lesson but it's just nice to be there. I guess i'm just so used to being there.
Nothing to do hence played with his keyboard and i figured out how to play another few songs. Another lil' achievement. See, it's always these things in life that made me felt that i'm living. :)

Recently, i've got a lil much more priority from a girlfriend of mine whom i gave much priority to. Regina. I appreciate it when she spends time talking and going out with me. This is what i want. And i do really appreciate every bit of it taking into account the stupid msgs sent everyday. At least it kept me occupied. Thanks!
At least my priority weren't wasted. :)

I DON'T WANNA STUDY!

Life in secondary school

2006-08-05T16:22:00.000+08:00

Before i even start my secondary school, i was already hearing all sortsa stories from my frends who were already a secondary pupil at that time.
I was soooo looking forward to it. Caz they told me this period of 4 years would be the most thrilling and fun part of your life.
I wanna experience the fun and thrillness so much.
However, 3 years and 8months have past.
I am sure, even though i graduate 4 months later, i can never look back and say i miss life in secondary school.
I really envy my friends around me who made great frends and could still look back after graduating and say they miss school.
Because i made the wrong choice and entered into this school.
From that time onwards i alrd gave myself a dead sentence. Perhaps it's that kind of thinkings that made me don't wish to open up and make frends with everyone and experience what's call 'life in secondary school' wholeheartedly.
I was totally wrong the moment i step into the school the very first day.
Yes, i made 2 good frends, but i lost the rest.
Perhaps it has got to do with the kind of attitude inside us.
And also the influence i got from my frends.
I had great times with them.
However, i wanna have great times with my other frends too.
I wanna make frends like how my frend farhan, hungkit, jenmark... are.
I want frends who give me as much priority as much as i gave them.
I don't want frends who only devotes their time to their bf/gf all the time.
I want frends who still can be with me even not in school time.
But i can't find it at all you know.
My four years are rubbish!
I have a hunch, my 2 pals are drifting away from me.
And i'm left all alone.
One found new frends and hangout with them with bf, left me aside. I wanna ask, for how long we haven't take the bus 811 and go home tgt like how we did last time? How long we haven't go out tgt? How many times i was being rejected when i asked you out? I dno.
Next, it's the attitude.
It's rubbish it's rubbish!
ALL RUBBISH!

I wanna have an end soon. I'd rather bring everything to an end. Rather than seeing everybody drifting from me everyday.

半年了

2006-08-04T20:51:00.000+08:00

時光匆匆飛逝，半年過去了
我們分開半年了

Movie & Shopping

2006-07-30T21:14:00.000+08:00

I was woken up by a bad dream at 10.30am. Damned! And i couldn't go back to my sleep anymore! The dream was scary. -.-"

In the afternoon, went for movie and shopping with Tam.
We watched Long Hu Men. The dragon-tiger-dno-wat-show. The show was very nice. I'll give it 4.5stars. Especially when Nicholas was so handsome. Haha! -.-"
No lah, but overall it was really nice.
Then we went about shopping.
My stuffs for today:
-White and gold diamonds bling bling watch
-Adidas top
-Earpiece

Today was so much lesser than normal. Caz i'm broke! Seriously!

Down

2006-07-30T00:57:00.000+08:00

I dno but i think i'm down on my luck recently. HALF of my mp3 was stolen. This is crazy. Alright, my mp3 can be pulled out into 2 parts, one part is the usb part and another part is just another part. I dno how to describe. It's the Creative black colour one. I took the usb part out and gave Sindy caz i wanted her to transfer some files inside and i just left that part in my bag outside the library. What fucking rule set by the school that we cnt bring our bags in? Dumb! Seriously dumb! So are your gonna pay for my loss? I don't understand the thief lah. What's so nice to take? Are you mad? It's just the outer cover. What can you do with it? If you want the Energizer battery in it just take it lah and leave that part alone man! My dispersed shillings were also stolen. Those were the changes that i got back after purchasing things and i just threw in. Crazy! Few cents they took it as well. I don't understand lah. I really don't.

Yesterday, i had a damn serious moodswing. The feeling was exactly like those down periods of L's. I haven't had this kinda swings for long. Like 7 months? The last time was really in January and i really hate it man!

Can somebody buy me anelectronic heavy key keyboard? Please. I spent all cash on appereals that i don't have any left. -.-"

I learnt new creations by my classmate. He taught me how to play Bei Feng Chui Guo De Xia Tian and Ni Na Me Ai Ta. I'm jumping happy man! I learnt two extra new songs. And i also figured out how to play Beautiful Love. Haha. That's why I NEED A KEYBOARD SERIOUSLY!!

Riena's birthday is round the corner. Who'll be the glimmering guests this time round? We shall see.

2006-07-23T03:43:00.000+08:00

This is very lame! -.-"

Dno-wat-to-write

2006-07-23T01:24:00.000+08:00

Haiz. Life's getting more and more boring lah. Lonely too.

Well, i shan't say much on these. Hmmm. There was CME lesson on dno which day lah so as usual Sindy and i went walking around and skipped the period. It was utterly boring and i dun even know who the hell is our CME teacher. -.-"

We've never been in class during CME before. And we stroll and stroll and stroll, we ended up in the toilet of nobody. Good. It's all ours. Then we started to do lame things inside. Just because we're TOO bored!

Guess who is who?I'm in the cubical. -.-"

We're friendly. Cheers!
Sindy&Gina.

Alike?

Enough of playing she said. After lazing around for more than a period, it's time to go back for POA lesson. I HATE POA!!! Then she went out of toilet, i followed too. :(

After POA was assembly, caz assembly is utterly boring, we decided to skip. Hence, 6 (Sindy, Gina, Samantha, Jiaming, WeiMing, KangSoon) of us hid in the class. Caz there's boys and girls, we can't hide in the toilet so just hid in class. But god damn it! That stupid teacher came and caught us. Hence, our ez-link cards were confiscated and brought down to detention. Alamak! But that few mins of playing hide-&-seek with the idiot teacher was so fun! WAHAHAHA! At least i felt more alive.

So we all slacked in the white room. Only sindy's doing hmwk.

This is real evidence.

Jiaming, stop feigning! Don't make me laugh! LOL!

Still can date sommore. -.-"

In the end, we're all hungry, stomach grumbling and we've had burger delivery from the canteen. Haha! Lame! He thinks he's the spokesperson for the 6 burgers. LOL!

And our table of four shared this one pathetic bottle of pink dolphin. -.-" This is even lamer.

In the end, that stupid muthu came and release us to go for English extra lesson and collect our ez-link card back after lesson. End of story.

Btw, this is how my class looks like when there's no teacher. The whole stretch of classes are studying so hard and ours are like monkeys in the zoo. LOL! But when others are mugging, what're we doin? Enjoying lah! WAHAHAHAH! This is called 'zhong ji yi ban'. Messy but cool okay! 4EC' 06. LOL!

-End of entry-

WAHHHH!

2006-07-16T18:50:00.000+08:00

I just came back from ice-skating again!
WAHAHAHAHAHA!
GUESS WHAT? I FELL DOWN AND HURT MY LEG AGAIN! LOL!

As i was wearing shorts and no jeans hence when i fall the freaking ice rubbed against my knee and then bleed. Awwwww. Pain pain pain!!!
I fell caz i was speeding with my younger cousin. LOL! So funny!
MAIN POINT IS... It's still very pain NOWWWWWWW!

Once again, the pictures speaks a thousand words.

Enjoy. :)

My younger cousin! Younger, not youngest. LOL!

HAHAHAHAHHA! I KNOW THIS IS UVER UGLY! LOL! BUT IT'S SO FUNNY LAH! LAUGH FOR ALL YOU WANT! HAHAHAHA!

TADA! My beautiful left leg. :'( SEEE!! Actually the skin injury ain't very serious you know. What's more serious is the inside. It's like so so so so so freaking pain whenever i stretch or bend. And can see the red colour dot dot dot? Ahhh! That one is swollen blue black. Not very obvious here but it's really horrible. But luckily my right leg is much better now. But in general, boh of my knee caps are ruined. LOL! But luckily that i fell and rubbed against the ice. Imagine if i were to be roller-blading instead of ice-skating, the consequences would be much much much worser. The knock inside is really fatal. :'( GOODNESS!

YEAY! HOLIDAY TOMORROW! :)

GOODNIGHT PEOPLE!

-Entry edited on 17.07.06, 11:54PM-

Ice skating

2006-07-16T00:59:00.000+08:00

Now that my comp is better i shall blog everything that requires with pictures on except Qing Tian da jie's bdae events. Caz... DA JIE! YOU HAVEN'T SEND ME ALL THE PICS! LOL! =X

Well, i went ice skating last Sunday. Which is the day that i collapse. LOL!

That was my first time skating. Wahahaha! And a beginner like me only fell one time okay.
And that fall wasn't myself but being dragged by my lil cousin okay! =p

The pictures shall do all the talkings.

HAHAHA! SIAM SIAM SIAM! DON'T BANG INTO ME! LOL!

LAMEEE!

2006-07-15T23:57:00.000+08:00

Haha. Nothing much, just trying to be lame. Well, am at my bro's place and using his lappie so i decided to use it to blog. LOL! So fun blogging with a lappie, so COOL! LOL! Aha! LAME LAME LAME!

I'm so tired. I needa sleeeeeep! I needa go home!

Oh well, something that i very much wouldn't want it to happen happened recently.
Afterall, it still took place. Hmmm. I feeling very neutral. Yep. :)

Oh i miss my sis. She's always so so so busy with her work to accompany me.
Being with her it always portray me as a small kid. :)
Always loving me like no one else does.
She showed me the world and teaches me lotsa things that i doesn't know in life.
Only then i knew about this world.
More influential people with reputation.
This is what i msg her and i really find it funny and lame lah.
'Hey sis! I'm all yours on Tuesday. But if you dun want tell me hor!' LOL!
I'm having holiday on Tuesday! CHEERS!

OH YAH!
Recently sooo into online shopping. And bought ALOT of stuffs. Wahahaha! Received some of my items already. Jumping with joy! LOL!
I've got a plan, after 'O's, i'm gonna venture into a business online. *still thinking about it*
and my beloved darlings are gonna be my models for the clothes. :)
YEAH! O Levels please please please end ASAP!!

AHA! Enough of this lame entry. I'm gonna go home now after a lame post.

Byeee everyone!
GOODNIGHT!
SLEEP EARLY! :)

Hospitalised!

2006-07-15T13:38:00.000+08:00

Hello people! I'm back blogging once again. Well, i kept wanting to blog about Hong Kong but i didn't have the time caz it'll really gonna be a long post. And also what happened last Friday. Yep, it was DA JIE's birthday! All of us had a great time in kbox. Especially when it comes to that we all are singing souls. It makes the celebration more special and unique! I'll update about that soon too. But now, it's gonna be a quick entry. Well, from the subject of the entry you can see that i'm hospitalised. Yes, indeed i am. Haha.
Nothing much but i was admitted on the Sunday night and discharged on Monday night.
It was due to food poisoning, there's bacteria infection in my blood, abdominal pain (it was really very very very super pain. pain till i could roll on the floor. Lol!) and fainting. This is the greatest part, i fainted on the street opposite my house. DOINK! It was really fainting. I was unconscious and laid on the street. Too bad there isn't any suave guy to save me. LOL! Anyway that was really a very very horrible and terrifying experience. I was just going opposite to get some stuffs and on the way back i just black out awhile and fainted after that. You know, i didn't get any signs saying that i'll faint or whatever. I just fainted like that. Just like that. I really realized the fragile-ness of life. You won't know when you'll fall or i should say i won't know when i'll just collapse. And during the one day in hospital really made me realize that i'm very fortunate to have a healthy body earlier on which i took it for granted very much. Not everybody are born to have the fortune to have such a healthy life. And i'm glad that what befall on me were just some minor illness which resulted from that i didn't take good care of myself. I'm still blissed to be able to recover and have a healthy body once again. So people, don't take what you gave now for granted. Your mother gave you a life, you have the responsible to take good care of it. It's very easy you know. Just drink more water everyday and eat sufficient fruits. Perhaps just one slice of papaya and one banana will do. It doesn't take much time of yours right? Eat a few mouthful of vegetables more and lift up your glass or water bottle and drink the water. It ain't difficult. With all these, you can really be so much healthier. Without a healthy body, there's ALOT of things you can't do. And this includes your favourite pastime. For instance, i skipped my beloved VOCAL LESSON and keyboard lesson. What's more impt is that it's my first advance lesson you know. And what can i do? Just blame myself for not taking the responsibility to take care of myself. I can't sing, i can play the keyboard. I seemed to have lost touch with music for so long. Good gracious that i could still listen to them. And i couldn't attend school for 2 days. I was on medical leave for 3 days but i went back to school on the 2nd day. I rather, really rather to go to school to study. Even the subject that i detest most, POA. I'd rather go back to listening to teacher blabbering some i-dun-unerstand-things to me than staying in the hospital. I told my frend, i seemed to be wasting life lying on the bed doing NOTHING. Just sleeping and resting. It really sucked! So please, whoever is reading, please take good care of yourself. Without a healthy body you can't love, you can't hate, you can't sing, you can't dance, you can't study, you can't play sports, you can't do everything!

This is the drip thats injected into my veins on my hand. :'( Pathetic enough.

This is when it bleed. And blood will flow into the tube. And the drip will get stucked!

This is the drip. Think i've had like 4 or 5 packets. -.-"

And finally this is my leg injury when i fainted on the street. I think i knocked against the floor that it resulted LIKE THAT!

Oh yah! I was admitted to Tan Tok Seng! Well, it sucked! Tam told me that Changi Hospital has got lotsa handsome NUS graduates doctors over there. Shit lah! I shouldve went there instead of this lousy TTS. MUAHAHAHHA! I'm just kidding. LOL!

-End of my editted entry-

2006-07-03T00:15:00.000+08:00

I have a bu zhang jin de bi zi. It kept bleeding!
Well, it means that my nose kept bleeding lah. I dno why.
I was so scared. Just for today, it had already bleed for like FIVE times. Each time it last for like 5mins without stopping. And i can see fresh red blood flowing and dripping. :'(
Initially, only one side was bleeding, afterwards, another side also bleed. ARGHHH!!!
I dno what's wrong with my body. And i had to keep swallowing the blood as our nose and throat are linked so i kept swallowing and swallowing and it kept flowing and flowing. The tissues were all blood. :'(
Other than swallowing, i kept spitting the blood also. Whoa! The scene really sucked i can say!
Past few days were better. Each day the flow was like only twice. I thought i was really too heaty but smth must be wrong for today. Why the hell did it continue bleeding for three continuous days? I think i'm going to the doctor again tml.
I remembered, when i was younger, my nose wasn't very good also. The inner skin of my nose was extremely thin that it became so vulnerable. I want to be healthy! I used to be so healthy jumping about. But in this year, i became so weak that i kept falling ill. ARGH! People says staying healthy is your wealth. I totally agree with this. If you're sick, you can't do anything. Including... singing!
I've got to build up my immune system after i recover! ARGHHH!

And one thing, England and Brazil is out. Ohmygoodness. Although i don't really watch wc but i kind of like these two countries. You know why? LOL! Caz England has Beckham and it's white colour. And Brazil is Green colour. I like these colour. LOL! Furthermore Brazil used to be so strong. Hur hur! But no longer now. LOL! I know i'm lame. Okay, god bless i get well soon.

I DON'T LIKE PORTUGAL!!!

2006-07-02T01:25:00.000+08:00

I'm back to blog!
I've got so much to say.
Firstly, my HK trip was considered quite fantastic on the shopping part. I'll blog about it soon. Caz it's simply just too long and there's tonnes of photos taken in HK for me to upload. But i dno why, my blogger seemed to have prob whenever it comes to blogging of pics. So i shall try it next time when i'm real free. Soon, no worries. I'm having holiday on Monday. It's Youth Day! HAHAHA! Which means i'm still a youth! DOINK! -.-"

Next, i'm SICK AGAIN! :( This time round, it's the same illness. I'm down with cough, bad flu, bad sorethroat, fever and body ache. This is the third time i'm falling sick within this year alrd i think. :( My body immune system is getting weaker as days goes by. Well, i think it's because of the HK trip. The weather is so sunny there and i hardly drink any water everyday except when dining. What's more is that i wake up so early in the morning and sleep uber late at night and resulted that i'm too heaty. Well, i went to the clinic yesterday and the doctor gave me so much medicine. :'( There's multi colours. Green, pink, orange, white... I pleaded for tablets instead of liquid medicine else i'll puke. Especially the feverish medicine. I'll faint immediately if i smell the smell. LOL! After seeing the doctor, i went out for keyboard class and to meet riena and guys after that. I really K.O. that night. I simply don't feel like talking at all as my voice really sucked and throat really sored like hell. I was feeling extremely uber upset and dizzy. I thought i might faint on the street anytime and my fever shot up to 38.2degree. So cool! I was also shivering all the while. When i got home safely, i finally have a ease of my mind. At least even if i were to faint, i'd also be fainting at home and not on the street. Haha! I took my medicine and went to bed.

Thirdly, about THAT thing. Well, i've thought it over. Be it that i didn't make it, just blame it that i dun have that enough shi li or i chose the wrong song to express myself. Cry, i've cried finish. Unreasonable, i've unreasonable finished. I'm glad so glad that i didn't gave up my passion just because of one failure, or rather, UNconfirmed failure.
Da jie, xiao mei will always be that xiao mei you knew. Dou shuo shi xiao mei le, nan mian will nao pi qi. HAHAHA! But i'm so touched with your comfort. Zhen de. Da jie will always be that da jie in xiao mei's heart! (=
Sam, my dearest darling. You are always there to talk sense into me and cheer me up and no matter what, you'll always be the one i ring up when i'm down. I dno why too. My fingers will just dial that 8 digits. I just wanna say, i LOVE you!
Denise! Some dumbo girl who know nth about what happened and out of the blue told me such heartfelting words. You sickening! HAHAHAHA! I feel so refresh you know the moment i woke up, sat infront of my comp and opened my comp and i saw Denise's tags. Shit you! You are always like that. So sweet!

Lastly, after the holidays, O levels seems to be drawing nearer and nearer to me. I have not started on my books yet. I hope i pray that momentum will come soon and i will get start cracking! OH GOD!

I'm gonna go watch my show, AI QING MO FA SHI. It's sooooooo nice!
Then off to sleep and tuition tomorrow!
GOODNIGHT PEEPS!
GOODNIGHT TO ALL MY LOVED ONES. (:

2006-06-28T19:13:00.000+08:00

i don't like the feeling of failing!
i really don't like!
everytime failure will turn my world upside down.
i'm feeling terrible upset terrible down terrible devastated!
i hate it man!
i tried very hard.
but... WHY? WHY IS IT ALWAYS LIKE THAT?!

I can accept failure in any aspects OTHER THAN MUSIC!
I can only succeed cant afford to fail.
what kinda principle is this right?!

although it's not told to me that i've failed, but from what that has happened, i knew it, CLEARLY!
i put up a brave front infront of my frend not daring to tear.
but i really really really cant hold it and it gushed out.
and now i can only sit at home and look at my hp, waiting to see Music Forest calling. however, hopes are like only 0.1%?
forget it. i failed twice in my life. are these two failures gonna brg an end to my passion towards music? i dno. but i think i doubt so. well, i should've listenend to lao shi. train up on my skills.
everything's too late. i'm gonna turn 17 next yr.

but what exactly caused the failure? my sore throat? ha ha ha. that's just an excuse to make myself be happier. well, in short, i just don't have the skills yet. fuck it man! really, fuck!

i'm gonna hate the song, DECEMBER by POON KAR LAI KELLY from now onwards.
just like how i detest LI XIANG QING REN by YANG CHEN LING!

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!

LAO SHI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :'(
i dno i let u down or let myself down!

I HATE IT!

2006-06-25T22:55:00.000+08:00

I'M BACK FROM HONGKONG!

i'll blog more about it soon. i hafta go home now! byeeee! (:

2006-06-21T02:36:00.000+08:00

sigh! vocal lesson was cancelled today. i dno why. maybe laoshi is sick. :(
hmm. my long awaited day finally arrive. (:
HEY PEEPS! I'M LEAVING TOWN TML!
I'M OFF TO HONGKONG!
The GOU WU & MEI SHI TIAN TANG; SHOPPING CUM FOOD PARADISE!
i think i'll just wouldn't wanna return lah huh. HAHA. =X
i'm gonna miss my keyboard lesson this friday. :(

Well, met up with my girlfriends as planned. we went kboxing and it was really really fun singing with them. hahaha. so high! after K, i went to janet's house to drop her her bdae present.
SHIT! she was at home. too bad. i could only put it in her room then. caz my actual plan was to bring the present to her home and leave it in her room to let her have a surprise when she returns home. well, i went to leave it there when she was taking her shower.
Lol! this is funny. when she came out and went into the room, her mum who's also known as my aunt said this 'if she shout XINYINGGGGG! means she saw. if she keep quiet means she never see anth' HAHAHAHAHA! in the end she kept quiet but she saw. LOL! then she came out of the room saying 'NI HEN GAN REN FEI FU LEH' HAHAHAHA! meaning you're so touching or smth lah. caz the bakerzin strawberry shortcake was the one that we said we will gonna eat it next time but she's sooooooo busy that i dno how NEAR would the next time be. hence, i brought her our 'yue ding'. LOL! WTH!
Then we went to jack's place for dinner! (:
the escargots there was MUCH MUCH MUCH nicer than THE SHIP's. -.-"

i have a HORRIBLE experience to share.
on a saturday night, father's day eve. 12am, i was going home. as my neighbour feeds stray cats hence there was always one or two wandering around outside my house. FUCK IT! that night when i was going home, the stupid blardy cat followed me. i was afraid lah so i walked a big round to the busstop wanting to keep myself away from that stupid cat. but it seemed to be following me or standing at a particular place looking at me. dammit! i got scared and called my aunt for help caz NOBODY WAS AT HOME and she is staying the nearest to me. while i was talking to her, i got even more frightened as i saw the cat move and suddenly, it RAN towards me. and i said this 'AHHHHH!! TA LAI LE! WO PAO LE!!!' it didn't occur to me that i could actually use any flower pots around to smash it on the floor to scare the cat away. the only solution that came to my mind was to RUN! and i ran with all my might and burst out in tears. crying as i run. -.-" oh fuck! my aunt was shocked. LOL! then she quickly asked my uncle to 'save' me. LOL! i hid in the playground waiting to be rescued from the fucking cat. then in the end, i was rescued and went home SAFELY! fuck it man! what a night! from then onwards, whenever i go home, i'd be like so uptight and worried looking around for the fucking cat! fuck fuck fuck! know what, i took a LONGGG time to calm down. my heart beat was beating terribly fast! only after i calm down, then i went to bed. FUCK FUCK FUCK!
I HATE THE BLOODY CAT!
SICKENING!
OH YAH! the neighbour of mine was still asking me 'DO U WANT THE CAT? I CAN GV IT TO U!' GIVE?! GIVE UR BLOODY HEAD! YOUR FREAKING CAT CHASED ME FOR A NIGHT! IDIOT! PISSED PISSED PISSED!!!

I'm leaving for hk soon! BYE!
P.s. school's gonna reopen soon. :'(

2006-06-16T23:52:00.000+08:00

It's Friday again! Whenever it comes to friday or tuesday i'll be so happy blogging. It's either keyboard or vocal class that lighten my day. (:
It's keyboard class today. Well, basically i learnt new playing methods. So cool. I love this method. Its called chromatic chords. the tune sounds so soothing so nice. awww.
you know, i've always hoped that one day if i were to attend a high class dinner or what so ever, if i've mastered my skills, i'd wanna play the grand piano infront of everybody. and slowly the whole ballroom will divert their attention towards the melody, the piano, the pianist. in a white dress, white heels and long silky hair sitting infront of the white grand piano and lay my fingers on the keys and produce beautiful melodies. haha. sound so fairytale. LOL! i believe it will come true. once after i've finish learning all the complusory diff chords, i can start choosing my own song to learn. i'm waiting!!! HAHA! first song i will learn would be MI GONG. YES YES YES! (:

TUESDAY! TUESDAY! i'm soooo looking forward for next TUESDAY! i'm gonna graduate from my intermediate class le! WOOHOO! and before going for lesson i'll be going singing with my girlfriends. which means i'll be singing whole day long. LOL!
well, tml will be a stay-home-saturday. i wanna finish my new show and bake my chocolate cake. LOL! then to meet up my relatives at night. i love the cosyness of family, you know. hahaha.
sunday will be going gai gai with tammy.
then monday will be going kbox with riena.
tuesday i'll be going kbox with my two darlings again! HAHAHA! i'll never get sick of singing. never! then gai gai and buy my bakerzin s.o.s for janet, who so dote on me. then head to class and then to her house. i'm gonna drop her a surprise by bringing the long awaiting cake that we both wanna eat and her birthday pressie. AWWWWW! Cant stand it. i'm just so sweet. HAHAHAHA! =X WTH!
This is just what i can do. she's way too nice to me. (:
know what? she's the first one i called out to when i first opened my mouth to talk when i was a baby! LOL! not my mummy not my daddy. is her! hahaha! (:

Alright! Off to my show! GOODNIGHT PEOPLE!

2006-06-16T01:12:00.000+08:00

I HATE IT! I SERIOUSLY HATE IT!
FRENDS COME ASKING ME ABOUT VARIOUS COMPANIES. I'd be glad to be of help in your doubts. But not when i know that because you tell me you can't sing thats why you wanna act. WTH! i just dun like it! he/she just has no passion in arts. laoshi always says this, singing is a form of arts and they dun like people who doesn't takes it seriously. well, it's all my prob. i dno why am i so agitated either. maybe frends around me are trying soooo hard with music. their passion for music. ercong strive so hard. syl went to learn dancing from that xk, that woman hoping to bring a better music to everyone one day. jiaqing learn guitar for the same motive too. me? i'm upgrading myself by trying very hard to imporve my vocal skills and taking up keyboard course. da jie, also. but others outthere. i dno lah. maybe the word 'passion' doesn't exists to them. or maybe this ain't their intention, i've wronged the person. but whatever it is. i just hate it when i saw that particular sentence!

2006-06-14T05:32:00.000+08:00

if 'shui mi gong''s saying really exists, i'd really wanna visit it one day, when the time is ripe.

2006-06-14T05:02:00.000+08:00

5am and i'm still unasleep. haha.
i'm sooooooooo HAPPY! HAHAHA. =X
well, nothing much. i just wanna share with everyone. (:
i'm having holidays now for all you know, hence trying to clear all my shows as much as i can.
recently am watching AI QING MO FA SHI. i think i'm going crazee about it. it's not because that they're so handsome or pretty or what so ever. it's because of the storyline and what's happening inside. another amazing thing, someone could actually come up with such great story. i've been watching this show for 2 days continuously all the way up till dawn. you know, what's happening inside made me realize that what's revolving around my frends and me are just so 'wei bu zhu dao'. a relationship that's being exchanged by a life could still actually turns out to be a wrong one. but why are people around me having such minor problems and hence create a fuss out of it? act as if it's the end of the world, act as you you're so pitiful? use thousands of sorrowful words to describe how pitiful you are now and how shitty your days/future is gonna be? i dun understand. in fact, myself too. looking at them, look at myself. i feel so ... maybe, we're still young. it's all infactuation. it's merely 'cuo jue'.

i've been watching so many shows these few weeks. looking at those stars that shine inside made me aspire to work even harder to reach my goal. nobody would know how much a artiste had to put in at the back to gain what he/she has. and normally, what we are seeing on the surface ain't the truth. the entertainment circle is a total darkness with many hidden hyprocrites. hmmm. well, laoshi today told us that don't take singing career to hard. just treat it as an extra job in life caz it's really not easy. we still must have our own career with us and at that moment i seemed to really understand the meaning behind his words. somehow, there's this negative thing in me. it's impossible that i can take it lightly. i can face failure in any aspects in life, but definitely not upon this, my dreams. xxx took me a long time to overcome the designated failure which i don't wish to see it repeating again. :'( i hate that feeling of being brought down from the limelight! but also, jj's school concert regained alot of my confidence and the courage to stand on the stage to face the unfamiliar audiences again. that ain't the start of everything, it's merely a small warm up. there's more to come.

hey people, if you're free, go on and watch zhong ji yi ban, ai qing mo fa shi, lu guang sen ling, e mo zai shen bian, silence... shen qing mi ma, dong fang zhu li ye...

zhong ji yi ban: it features a new born group with good acting skills. i like it, i can't bear to part with the show. Lol. -.-"
ai qing mo fa shi: it's currently still airing now in taiwan. it's great. i like it too! featuring j-stars whom i dun really like. but their acting skills are good. i almost went mad.
well, in fact even taiwan young actors like them could really act very well compared to singapore mdc freaks.
lu guang sen ling: nothing much, quite a draggy storyline but the guy's handsome lah. he plays a violin inside which is fake lah huh. watch it last if there's other shows to consider. LOL!
e mo zai shen bian: i simply went crazee. you will kiss the screen.
silence: nothing much to say. it's neutral to me. it's only showing till episode 4.
dong fang zhu li ye: erm. neutral too. it's only showing till episode 2.

yeah! basically, these shows are great lah. better than watching world cup. LOL!
i watch it for the skills and storyline. it's really good. (: try out if you're free.

i must go to bed now before dawn. i still have a date with qing tian tml.
GOODNIGHT! (:

dai zhe yi ge xing fu de xin qing shui jiao qu. (((:

2006-06-11T01:32:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JULIAN!
you're 27! (:

2006-06-11T00:53:00.000+08:00

another weekend is here!
world cup starts ytd. But it has got nth to do with me. LOL! i dno how to appreciate balls. HAHAHA! DOINK!
Did some online shopping. SO FUN! So many nice nice pretty pretty clothes. HAHAHA!
OH YAH! I'M SO HAPPY WITH MY CURRENT KEYBOARD LESSON! CHEERS!
so far, i've completed Hui Zhe Chi Pang De Nu Hai and Zhi Shao Zou De Bi Ni Zao. Which means i've done progression chords and the dno-wat-chords. HAHAHA. I forgotten what kinda chords is it called. =/ think it's inversion? not very sure. But aiyah! i dun needa know the name. LOL! And now i'm progressing to chromatic chord. Learning Yue Guang now. Awwww! The melody is fantastic! I dun like the song in fact, but the chords arrangement was really good! So soothing and relaxing. (: Those who could play piano very well never fails to impress me. Everytime my teacher, keri, is playing the keyboard in lesson really captivates me. It's amazing lah! The white and black keys could actually produce such beautiful melody. It's amazing eh? Well, there's tonnes of amazing things in this world that i've yet to discover and explore. I will wanna spend the rest of my life discover and exploring amazing and fantastic stuffs!
Ok! Back to topic. No wonder my Mdm Ho always says my compo will write too much irrelevant stuffs. My storyline will 'piao' to very far away. LOL! =X
Hmmmm. Today went shopping and kbox-ing with riena. DAMNED! i havent step into kbox for like half a year. -.-"
Now i know why lao shi will always say he hates going to ktvs, pubs... HAHAHA! It will really spoil their professional ears. HAHAHAHAHHAHA! Horrible! I hope to reach that extend one day!
Singing really brings me so much fun and happiness. By just singing a song that merely last for like 4-5mins can bring out the total emotions of someone in the lyrics of like merely 2 verse and 2 chorus? It's also amazing eh? See! There's so much amazing stuffs revolving around. Open up, and you'll see more. (: But, somehow she asked me this question that really dumbfound me. 'wei she me xi huan chang ge yao dang ming xing? xi huan chang ge bu jiu zhi shi xi huan chang ge ma?' i was stunned upon the question. i have no answer to myself also. therefore, i remained silent. i have no answer at the moment. or maybe, i'll never be able to find the answer to it in my life.
oh well, after singing, i went to far east to get my heels and to taka for my donuts and photos. the donuts are really YUMMY! HAHA. Then off to bugis! searched for the shorts i wanted high and low and in the end when i was goin' to give up, i FOUND IT! LOL!
In the midst of searching, i bought another new bag. White and gold one. I LIKE IT SO MUCH! HEHEHE! The stupid auntie or rather nice? HAHA. She sell it at $29.90 initially. But there's GSS now so it was reduced to $23. (DAMNED! There's another uncle infront selling it for $29! WAFFAK! LOL!) Then i requested for $20 she said no, $22. So i decided, since i'm not in shortage of any bags now and am very happy with my AGNES B bag, i shan't not get it unless she agree to my request. She said no so end of story lah. Goodbye auntie! As i was leaving she said 'ah okay lah! $20 lah!' LOL!!! Then i bought it for $20. HAHA!
After paying i was thinking, do i really want this bag? Or i'm just happy with that it cost only $20? I'm not sure either. My mind was confused. I think i only want the sense of satisfaction. I was quite guilty upon purchasing. $20 just spent like nothing like that. $20 was my godfather hard earn money and i squander it off just like that. $20 require how much of his sweats and energy? The more i told myself i have to return all these back to him when he's old and i am capable of! :( That's to be filial and to dote on the only godfather who dotes on me like no one else does. And of caz mummy and godmum.

Then to the lao di fang to have our dinner. Then Grace and Jasper came to join us and drove us to PS Carrefour to shop. In the end, i bought one big packet of Fruit Tree Apple juice. LOL! DOINK!
Then Riena left and they drove me home. Before that i accompanied them for dinner. I was freaking bloated by then! LOL!

It's so nice seeing all the frends around me all blessed with that sweet smile on their face.
Riena&Jackson
Sindy&Willy
Samantha&Jiaming
Denise&Ivan
Nat&dno who. LOL!
and today, Grace&Jasper

you know, i'm still hoping for that history to repeat to join that blessing.
However, it's all gone.
Gone in the winds. Just like that.
It's okay, a knight is gonna appear with an amour soon, right xinmin? Haha. Yeah yeah. Mr Q!
HAHA!

Okay! End of story. I think the 2nd match of tonight shld be coming to an end soon. Anw, it's NONE OF MY BUSINESS! LOL!

GOODNIGHTS!
SLEEPTIGHT! (:

P.S. DUN GET EATEN UP BY WILD BOAR!!!

2006-06-04T23:26:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was indeed fun!
It was ld's birthday and therefore the except eileen, the whole xyy was down including shuhui.
Riena, Regina, Jo, Pam, ML, ShuHui, me and JULIAN.
We went for lunch in town.
The food was okay.
Well, i'm lazy to type so in short, yep.
It's just a birthday celebration lah. Haha.
Last yr was FengLing, YaoDong and Jessica.
This year was Julian.
Who will it be next year?
HAHA. Wth.
Anw, BYE!

2006-06-01T19:14:00.000+08:00

it's really sooo boring lah these few days.
well, friends are either having exams, working or sick. =(
So i coop myself up at home these two days.
Watching dramas and sleeping.
If i have the energy, i'd go jogging.
Else i'll be infront of the screen. -.-"
Only days like tuesday and friday will make me feel a lil more alive!
Tuesday there's vocal lesson! (:
Friday there's keyboard lesson! (:
That's the only time i'll feel alive whereas the rest of my time i'm like half dead. >.<

Went for remedial in school today.
Only attended chemistry and skipped physics and went to look for MUMMY!
Haven't seen her for days. =(
Then, home i go. Once again, BOREDNESS!
BORDNESS IS KILLING ME SLOWLY!

Although i prefer life like this now, more 'rural'.
But not rural to this kinda horrendous extent please. :(
I need some excitment and fun.
I don't like myself being unoccupied.
I hate it!
Fuckshit!
Caz that's when this typical piscesean will surface again.
All sorts of dumb thinkings, emotional tortures... :'(
i will start thinking...
About the sweet times i had with this mysterious person. (:
How sweet.
I'm really smiling inside.
when I looked back, i see what we went through.
Although it might not be as much as others but still, i've learnt so much from these and so thankful that i've once had this beautiful memory and also thankful that... we're going seperate ways now.
He had his life now and i had mine.
Although that period was short, but it was really the most unforgettable beautiful phrase in my 16years of life.
It's ain't bout the length you know, but the depth.
I was glad that i had this memory with me. Although there were more tears than laughters but just one laughter could overcome thousands and millions of tears shed.
This journey made me realized the change in me.
good and bad.
i learnt to be understanding, patience and more tolerance.
yet, i've became harsher towards my friends and bad tempered.
i guess that i've changed caz of that person.
But my actual self had already so used to being hot tempered and impatience that if i changed for the better on one side, another side of my life has gotta suffer.
Caz i'll turn more vicious and bad. twice vicious than before, i think.
it's like i'm forcing myself to be better and in the end, i'll erupt like a volcano.
but i've really learnt to tolerate more in life and opened up.
less grudgeful.
alhough i am still now, but if weren't for this thing, i wouldn't even know this flaw of mine.
Well, i guess the 'yue lao' in the heaven had somehow connected the red threads wrongly or there's like a knot while joining the thread of one person to another that resulted in this wrong 'relationship'.
hmmmm. well, what's over is over. i've been telling myself this.
i'm fine! just being so bored that so many flashbacks are flashing through my mind.
haha. i dun mean to recall about him. it just occur to me naturally.

Oh well. Although i'm home all day long but i can't bear to waste my time sleeping on the bed. LOL! and i'm so tired now.
dark rings are on my eye.
OHH NOOOOOOO!
BOOs!

2006-05-31T19:55:00.000+08:00

I'm HOME! (:
WHOA! The feeling of being at home is so niceeeee.
Went out at 7am this morning. Even earlier than i go school normally k.
HAHA. Well, we went to Singapore Poly today.
Hmmmm. Some dumb things that happened i shall not say about it.
But in the first place. Hello? What are we ain't you people's business right? Why give me that scanning from top to toe look? Yucks!
Hmmm. Overall, SP is a tough school to get in i think.
Before i went to the talk, i still see a glimpse of hope after my graduation from northland.
Yet, after that, haiz. Not even a ray. LOL!
WTH! Cut off point for my desired course is 11... ELEVEN! I can go to the top 5 jc in singapore i think! LOL!
What's with this society mann. Why is it sooooooo hard? I mean like... what has our secondary school results gotta do with the course we're taking? Why mann? Why does it even need SCIENCE when i'm not taking science course? Why do i even need humanities when i'm not gonna be a archaelogist? DUMB MAN!
I see no hope in my future.
FUCK IT MAN!

May god just so bless me lah. AMEN.

I've got another thing to say.
And that's i've got a god brother!!! (((:
This is a miracle and a new beggining of a new life! Awww.
Sindy's mum have given birth two days ago.
Samantha and i went to her house today after SP.
And what i really saw was a new born baby.
So fragile, go harmless, so pure, so vulnerable, so...
I dno how to describe lah.
He's only like 2 DAYS old...
I've never get to get so close or rather see such a new born baby before.
Maybe my brother, yes. But wth. I was only three at that time what makes u think i can remember the feeling vividly? -.-"
The eyes was closed, body wrapped up and wearing a diaper.
It's really unbelievable! The limbs and head are still so soft and... You know like as long as you're a human you wouldn't bare to even hold him tight. Afraid that you'd hurt him. But there's an urge to hug and pamper this new life. I'm looking forward to the day whereby he will start using his 5 fingers to grab hold of one of my finger and calls me 'ZEH ZEH'...
Look so tiny and small. It's really a fragile life.
Looking at him and i am thinking...
Twenty years down the road, this lil baby boy lying infront of me is gonna be a MAN. By then i'm like 36yrs old. MY GOD!
By then would he even still remember this zeh zeh once carried, sayang and loved him? (:
I wanted sooooooo much to carry this lil life on my arms yet so afraid that i'd hurt him.
But in the end i still carried. SO HAPPY. HAHA.
You can see him looking directly into your eyes and put his fingers into your mouth...
Awwww. You'll feel like so touched.
Just being an outsider, a god sister of this baby and i'm feeling so excited so happy so...
Imgaine what's the feeling of a mother?
Carrying him for 9months in the stomach without grumblings despite hardship.
It's really not easy being a mum. Especially a successful one.
Mothers are really the greatest person in the world!
Treasure your mums now people before it's too late.
From this, i really can see how important a mother is to her children and how important is the child to the mother.
Love your mum, starting from now...
If you happened to quarrel with her, forgive and forget.
Think back, how she carried you in her stomach and endured thru the 9months and the ten over years to bring you so far. (:

ILOVEYOU, MUMMY! (:

2006-05-30T00:35:00.000+08:00

long time didn't blog alrd.
see this blog and i'm so sick of it. yucks! it really sucked man. just like the url.

well, recently was fine.
today was mother tongue 'o' level. paper was hell mann.
i'm prepared to spend another $35 to retake. abit dumb, i know. -.-"

i miss so many of my friends. =(

dearest JANET.
brenda
sylvia
jiaqing
ercong
xinmin

sniff sniff. :(

i'm having holidays now.
a good one.
i shall rest at home and not go out.
shit man. i'm getting more like an old lady. -.-"
so hectic and packed with life recently.
so lucky that i could have time to rest. (:

one more thing!
DO NOT TAKE ME FOR GRANTED!
i'm your frend, not your spare tyre!
not someone who u wanna call u call, wanna dump u dump.
get this clear!
else, i really find you this frend a redundant one in my life.
i shall say, all the best to u.
better reflect on urself!

so tired. YAWNS!

GONE~

2006-05-23T14:46:00.000+08:00

I WANT EVERYBODY

DEAD!

maybe you didn't know. i'm a cold blooded person who wants everybody dead! so now u know. it's still not too late!

FUCK IT MAN! THE WORLD SUCKED! EVERYBODY SUCKED!

2006-05-14T01:30:00.000+08:00

i came across this... (:
how sweet.

2006-05-14T00:47:00.000+08:00

a frend of mine told me a story.
it goes like this...

once upon a time, there`s 3 best frend in this galaxy.
they were so good and bonded that they thought nothing could seperate them.
they were strangers in the first place but hit off well and got together in the same class.
they believe that it`s fate that brought them together.
as days goes by, they are closer and closer.
be it that after they`ve graduated they still wanna go into the same school together.
everyone of them are willing to sacrifice to do anything in order to save the other one or to make the other one happy.
they were always so happy together that people were so envious of them.
in fact, i am envied too. (:
they were so brave to lie to teacher, going against them, going against people who anti them... lots and lots.
i was told that they shared happy memories. left their footprints and laughters all over singapore.
they even said that they wanna be each other`s bridesmaid when any of them get married.
life was exciting, thrilling, happy, unhappy, vexed... but they gone thru everything together.
it was beautiful. memories were wonderful.
they`re just waiting for the coming major exams to be over to enjoy life to the maximum together and have fun like hell caz only at that time then two of the three who were not granted full freedom would be freed. they really await for that day's arrival very hard.
however, in the midst, something happened that brought all these to a clear stop.
how saddening eh? i really think it`s very upsetting though. hmmmm. too saddening to an extent that everytime i would wanna tear each time i flash back this story.
okay continue.
one day, one of the three suddenly came into a quarrel with the other 2. out of nowhere, the conflict surfaced. the 2 dun even know whats happening.
i was told that it was like shit!
i pitied the 3 of them.
however, i felt that one of them dosent treasure the other 2 that leads to this kinda things surfacing. well, it`s just my own opinion. no offence please.
then my frend said that the quarrel was disastrous too lah.
it led them to nowhere but seemed like an end to their sistership.
it`s like one of them is giving the both of them up for something else.
i dno whats that. my frend didn`t include.
but sad to say that so all those words like how strong their frendship is are all untrue?
oh well, i hope not.
one of the three tried to be a mediator. but yes, they were back. however, it`s only on the surface, not truthfully back.
the mediator thought everything is really like last time whereby so fun and happy and she could still continue pouring her unhappiness to her. she`s a very very very good advisor and listener who always never fail to disappoint her when she turns to her. now that this sister is gone. what`s gonna happen to the other one when she`s upset. she could no longer turn to her anymore. i was told that she lost someone impt in her life.
both of them really really thought that they were back to normal u know.
untill one day after a paper i think if i didn`t rmb wrongly of what was being told.
my frend said that one of the 3 asked that another one of the 3 where they wanna go caz its smth like last paper alrd. but yet, the one of the three didn`t went out with them. instead she joined another frend of hers whom i think she might be happier with. well, it ain`t like this last time. they would ALWAYS be tgt after sch unless special circumstances. this time round or rather this period of time, everything changed.
she had clearly choosen her guy and her other frend and left her two sisters.
so what even if her other two sisters felt very sad and cried? no point.
their beloved sister left.
she`s her physically but left her soul.
all were upset. very upset.
i`m sure even the one who left must be upset.
it must have been hard on her to leave her once went thru hardship with sisters.
the two felt that if she wants to do it that way, she`s happy then by all means lah.
afterall, all shared happy memories tgt.
my frend said that one of the girl knew that the one of them had given up both is that she saw something which the girl wrote. 'she`s lost smth very impt in life... she wouldn`t wanna lose another anymore.'
well, one of the girl would like to say this... she hadn`t lose any of them yet. none of them had left. just that she had ownself chose to left them for her happiness which i think she thinks that she cant get it from the other side.
anyway, the other two still loves and treasure her like how they always does.

end of story.

it`s heart felting. truly. i hope that the 3 will get back like what they were together in the past.
caz there`re still many birthdays, valentine`s days, christmas, holidays down the road awaiting for them to spend tgt.

...

2006-04-30T00:07:00.000+08:00

It's been awhile since i've went shopping. :(
well, somethings happened recently allowed me to learn to be brighter.
i realized that the entertainment circle ain`t as easy and simple and innocent as i thought it was.
people always say that 'the entertainment circle is black'.
i dun quite believe it untill i experienced it myself.
but well, it's all over.
but i'm glad that there were people assisting me along. Thanks to them that i could find the pathway out.

Next, once again. Mid year is round the corner.
FRUCKS! i never really study anything yet.
I'm so tired so studying. :(
I WANNA GO POLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
like i said, my secondary school life sucks! If i can, i would wanna start secondary school life anew. Choose the right school and mix with the right company. (I'm not saying that i'm mixing with the wrong company but i've definitely went into the wrong school.)
People always say that secondary school life is the most wonderful period of ur life. BULLSHIT.
Maybe to some, yes. But definitely not to me. It's just so unexciting and plain boring. I come to school just for the sake of coming to study. No more. I guess, there's nothing for me to come back after i graduate.
I wanna go into a poly life quickly!!! Get into the course i like and enjoy the campus life there whereby i`d meet lotsa new and fun people. People who are enthusiatic about campus life like me and to try out everything in the school.
I'm really looking forward to make new frends and to enjoy the course i like.
I really am. :(

However, my grades dun seemed to allow me to do so. Maybe to enter a poly, yes.
But no to the course i want. It needs 13points i think. WTH! Next life mann. It`s an IMPOSSIBLE that Gina would get 13 points for L1R4.
I thought it'd be quite easy as long as i do some revision but i was wrong about myself when i was revising through for my mid year exams. Maths seemed to difficult. Science are so hard to tackle. Humanities are tough to memorize. Language are hard to score. WTF! How to get good grades? GO BANG WALL LAH!
__ the holyshit cambridge!

OFF TO SLEEP.

JJ Party!

2006-04-23T12:12:00.000+08:00

Well, today is the day.
23rd April.
We`ve been working hard these weeks just for today but none was able to go up there.
Instead, we were given VIP seats there.
Just hope i won`t burst out into tears later on. LOL!
HAHAHAHAHA. just kidding. i won`t.
well, mid year exams are around the corner.
and it`s like haunting me ALOT! =(

i`m gonna go study!
BYE PEEPS! (:

i`ll miss all my 6 teammates. :(

2006-04-21T18:04:00.000+08:00

so fast, 2 weeks have past.
for the past 2 weeks it was practically a busy one for all 6 of us.
skip school, skip lecture, skip work, sacrifice time and energy and sleeps and most importantly.
AFFECTED OUR STUDIES. oh well. i skipped my maths re-test.

as usual, thursday was our last rehearsal but we got to know the saddening fact on wednesday.
and that`s... WE WON`T BE ABLE TO PERFORM IN EXPO. :'(
my dearest brenda and syl cried. but i didn`t. well, thats all because i`ve alrd knew the outcome when xiao ke lao shi was watching our dance that day. can see from her face lah. how 'good' are we. yes! and from that moment i`ve learnt to open up and not pin much hope on the expo. but still, poor things. afterall, we really trained very very hard. i think i`ve pulled my leg muscles. but well, there must be sacrificing before gaining anything. and yup, what i gained was at least a presentable dance for the whole song of JIU SHI WO.
take it easy girls. (:
there`s of more chance to come by.

today was the day! standing on the same platform as JJ. i`m quite contented alrd actually. it ain`t easy you see. but i still think my performance today sucked! i was kind of nervous hence i couldn`t take in enough breathe to hit the high note. F**K MAN!
but the only thing that i was elated about was that the audience swayed along with us during the interval. whoa! we really really didn`t expect them to even move along with us. but the actually did. i`m really happy about that. (:
The 3 guys did not bad too. Just blame on the lousy sound system. The receiver really sucked like hell. Echo here and there. @^(@##%!#%!^$^%&!^!@^%*&^(

Everyone was dead beat after the performance. kind of like walking corpse. Haha. the previous night i slept for only 3hrs caz ADP ended at ard 1am. bones nearly break. Then next day wake up to go to school. Alamak!

Haiz. We were still saying it`ll kinda be 'funny' from now onwards not going to hai die everyday to practice anymore. it`s really 'funny' lah. we`re like to used to it alrd. everyday rush down there. skip this skip that. so sad. :(
nvm. there`ll be more chances in the future i believe.

one more thing! ain`t it a BIG coincidence?
er cong is actually one of the six. well, he used to be my senior in secondary school.
the world is really just so small. (:

2006-04-16T22:26:00.000+08:00

just came back from rehearsal again.
i fell asleep on the bus. i was really really tired these days.
life was hectic as well.
i really really hope to do well on friday to make it to the expo but it`s like...
there`s always problems here and there.
our vocal dun seemed to coordinate very well when we dance caz we tend to pant.
our dance steps. i tend to forget in some parts.
i feel that somehow i can`t seemed to focus. maybe i`m too tired.
but i always believe that TIRED, is the biggest excuse given to complete certain stuffs.
say, study. i still remember vividly. a teacher of mine told me.
you are not tired. unless u lost discipline and ur mind allows u to run wild and tells u that u are tired. but sometimes i admit. i really have no discipline. ranting away in the middle of the night and feeling restless. i could use the time to study right? but i just didn`t want to. yes, caz i`m lazy to face all those books. i wanted to sing or practice on my keyboard. but somehow, sometimes what u wanna do just cant seemed to be done. maybe it`s at the wrong time.
there`s another rehearsal tml. so what does it mean? it means that i gotta rush home after school to get changed and prepared to go down to hai die = no time to study. and the best thing is. i`m having my mid year exams in 2 1/2 weeks time. i havent touched on anything yet. (: i just so have to bless myself.
seriously, i really feel very guilty in doing so. neglecting my studies caz of all these. but it`s like... if i forsake this opportunity caz of the exams ain`t i dumb? i thought i could manage and handle it well but i was utterly wrong. frends and families are very supportive of me. but it seemed that i`m gonna let them down in terms of studies.
lao shi said that, you think xxxxx (an artiste) can acheieve what she has today without putting any effort? she also has to have the right attitude and discipline to come so far. without all these you think how far can she go. if without the right discipline, how can she improve. to be disciplined enough to train her vocal everyday, read her scripts... to be a successful star. you`ve gotta have the right attitude and correct discipline.
once, another frend of mine told me. there`s this national player of singapore for dno-what-game. but yet she`s doing her a levels while representing singapore for the asean games. surprisingly she has got a gold medal in the end. not only that, she has even acheieved national top 5 results. well, all these people are really my model and motivator to move on at least get over my mid year exams peacefully.
i`m really afraid yet guilty at the same time. =(
but i do feel blessed and happy to have at least acheieved that little of success.

SORRY!

2006-04-15T21:41:00.000+08:00

SORRY!

:'(

2006-04-14T22:12:00.000+08:00

YEAY! i got my new phone. NOKIA 6280! (((:
i changed no. le people. there`s good and there`s bad lah. (:

well. i have somthing to say.
I`LL BE PERFORMING AT JJ LIN JUN JIE`S EVENT!
*JUMPS* it`s a good news alright! (:
you may be having loads of question marks in your head. alright. i`ll solve ur question marks. LOL!

one day, when i went Hai Die for my keyboard class. i saw the notice all around the whole sch... 'sign up now for the audition to perform at jj`s party'
so i went to sign up for fun lah. really just for fun know. i SWEAR!

Then... On...
Monday, 9th April 06.
4.30pm, i was at causeway point.

HP rang...
Hai Die: Hello Gina ah. this is sharon. u wanna sing wat song for the audition?
Gina: Huh. Erm... i think i wanna sing Kelly`s Da An.
HD: Huh. cnt. u must sing jj or hai die artiste`s songs.
Gina: huh... but i dno leh. and i not very familiar with jj`s song. ermmm. if its in this case i think i dowanna join alrd.
HD: Huh. really ah. aiya. come down and try lah. try try only.
Gina: Huh... erm. okay lor. u lemme consider. i call u back in 5mins time.
5mins later...
Gina: okay lah. i wanna sing Hui You Na Me Yi Tian.
HD: ok bye bye.

They never tell me the audition date and time wor.
After that, i went home le. Reached home at 6PM.
Thinking wanna call and ask when and what time is the audition then i can prepare the song.
Gina: Hello. Check with u ah. When is the audition?
HD: HUH! NOW LAH! 5PM - 7PM WAT.
Gina: HUH! NOW?! I DIN KNOW! NOBODY TOLD ME!
HD: u are supposed to read the notice urself.
Gina: I din go and take notice of it mah. HAHA.
HD: Then how?
Gina: Huh. Then i think i cnt come down le lor.
HD: U come down now lah. Still got time.
Gina: Where got time. I stay yishun leh.
HD: Huh. Then how?
Gina: Then nvm lor.
HD: Huh. ok lor. bye bye.
Gina: byebye.

Gina pondered. Walked around at home for 5mins. Thinking if she never even try and just let the chance slip by ain`t it a waste? But if i go down i needa take a cab which will cost me like 15bucks after all the extra charges. HAIZ.
think think think. she decided... GIVE IT A TRY!
Faster get changed! Print the lyrics and DOWNLOAD the song and put it into my mp3. LOL!
dun even have time to put on my lenses. Wore spects and i ran out.
Got in the cab at 6.30pm. Practiced the song on the cab. LOL!
Reached there just in time! Sang. Couldn`t hit the low note at all. And what i was thinking at that moment was... 'TMD SHIT! CNT HIT THE LOW NOTE! SURE CNT PASS ONE! WASTED MY TRIP DOWN.' So after that i went out of the studio and went home. Stupid shit! i was thinking i sang so terribly and sommore couldn`t hit the low note sure wont get in. i SWEAR! Sommore waste my cab fare. TMD! BUDDEN HORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

8.30PM.
Gina`s phone rang.
It says 'MUSIC FOREST'
Well, the first thought was 'why hai die call again? wanna tell me keyboard prac this friday gonna cancel izzit? wah lao eh.' i really didn`t even went to think about the audition stuffs. i really didn`t.
Then i answered. It was Colin on the line.

HD: Hello Gina.
Gina: hello.
HD: Gina, u tml 5.30pm free not?
Gina: yah why?
HD: can u come down for 2nd audition?
Gina: HUH! WHAT?! I PASSED 1ST AUDITION AH?!
WAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OKOK! I COME TML!

LOL! SO HILARIOUS RIGHT!
Then second day as usual i went. This time round it was a prepared one. Haha. This time round i didn`t take in enough breathe and thus i was outta breathe in the chorus. Those who know this song will know that its a very long-winded song. So i was thinking... ALAMAK! never breathe! siao liao! then huan liang lao shi still kept talking for SOOOOOOO long. ate into my vocal class time. So after that i rush down to virtuoso for vocal lesson. After lesson, hai die called! This time round i guessed it may be smth caz of the audition. either pass or fail. Then sharon said. GINA! YOU ARE SHORTLISTED! CAN U COME DOWN TML?
WAH LAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I nearly broke out into tears can! Hence, i shouted to lao shi telling him i passed the audition! WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I`m really very happy! Well, i feel that it`s a rare opportunity that comes by lah. (:
This really teaches me that don`t ever let any chance slip by. Grab it tight when it comes. Caz you`ll never know the outcome unless u give it a shot. (:

In the end, 6 were selected over the hundereds. Er Cong was also one of them. What a coincidence. Haha. Well, 3 guys 3 girls. We were told to grp according boys and girls. Caz this is Hai Die`s first time using basic class students. We cnt have duets caz our vocals are still not strong enough as the range of both sexs are quite diff. =(
i`ve always hoped for a duet. :( Nvm. i`m sure there`ll be more opportunites in the future.
so, in the end i`ve made good frends and we clicked! HAHA!

BRENDA & SYLVIA!

you girls really rock! (:
it`s really nice to meet frends who are able to click with you and have the common interest. (:
today we went to brenda`s house for rehearsal.
Well, our song is completed! WOOSH!
But of caz there`s still flaws.
MAMA! MUSCLE ACHES!
HAHAHA!
I really love the feeling. whereby we all fight for our dreams together, having the same goals.

WE`RE ONE STEP CLOSER TO OUR DREAMS GIRLS! (:

2006-04-08T21:51:00.000+08:00

1.00.16pm.
Gina was revising her POA. Then suddenly her phone rang...
'TinyBox'
ALAMAK! She jumped up! LOL! Answered the call.

Gina: Hello! (nervously and excitedly)
TinyBox: Hello Gina ah. This is Fang Fang.
Gina: Yah i know.
TinyBox: Still sleeping ah?
Gina: No lah, i woke up already. Haha.
Then Gina urgently asked how`s her audition?
TinyBox: Erm... Your audition ah...
Gina`s heart was about to drop. Pulse rate beat to the highest.
TinyBox: Ni... GUO GUAN LE!
Gina: ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XIE XIE NI! XIE XIE NI! HAHAHAHA! NI XIA SI WO LAH! HAHAHA! XIE XIE XIE XIE! (((:
TinyBox: HAHAHA! Gong xi ni ah...
Then blah blah blah.

Okay. The above conversation was what that took place this early afternoon. (((:
I was DARN happy the whole day jumping about.
Well, i`ve made it into TinyBox, Mr Li Fei Hui`s artiste development prog coached by him personally. I`m considered god damn lucky! Caz not everybody could have the chance you see. (:
The audition was on Thursday and when i went there, fei hui lao shi was also there. Considered lucky. Caz he`ll get to see you. I mean as in how you look like overall, so he needn`t base on the pictures attached as photos might be misleading. (:
Then i went into the studio for the audition. I sang Kelly`s Da An. Alamak! I was shivering and trembling lah huh. SUPER NERVOUS. I did badly. I knew it myself. And indeed Fang Fang said i din do well in some high notes in the middle. Enforcing too much strength on my thorat without using any headvoice to push the notes up and my voice was trembling caz i was simply too nervous. But the sound system was really good lah. And i din know the song was also recorded down. *Faints. It was real sucky. And the song i sang was initially supposed to be 'qing chang' caz there ain`t any karaoke version in the market yet. But well, the company i went was TinyBox and obviously they`d have the demo there. LOL! Dno is counted lucky or unlucky enough, they let me sing it along with the music. GOSH! i`ve never tried it before. No choice but to 'sui ji ying bian'. Kinda hard to keep it going on with the tempo and etc. Haiz. BUT! that copy was the minus one key version which is going to be released as an karaoke vcd into the market soon. Nobody has ever sang it before. Not even Kelly. And i`m the first! OMG! i can`t believe it. Really can`t! HAHA. i`m really lucky and honoured i feel. (: There`s still many many lucky things lah in between. Which i`m so lazy to type out. =x Quite pleased to hear that everyone left quite a good impression on me esp lao shi. (: he thinks that i`ve got the 'qian neng' which i dno if its true anot lah. HAHA! and another factor`s that i`m young enough. the minimum requirement age is 16 and i just hit 16. HAHA. (:
Well, i just feels that everyone has got their each and own dreams. You`ve gotta try ur best, grab every chance that comes by and one day, it`ll come true. I`ve failed in between too. But never give up! Caz you won`t be unlucky forever! (: strive for ur dreams everyone!

Hohoho! From now onwards i`m gonna be real busy. But well, i`m gonna love this busy schedule of mine. (: Caz it`s all about things i love in my life.
As ususal, i still have to study and go to school as per normal.
Monday: Poa remedial.
Tuesday: Vocal lesson @ Virtuoso (:
Wednesday: Tuition
Thursday: Artiste Development Prog @ TinyBox (:
Friday: Keyboard lesson @ Hai Die (:
Saturday: Hanging out
Sunday: Tuition

WOOHOO! it`s gonna be a colourful life. (:
Filled with music. And i`m really gonna love it! I`ll be concentrating on my studies and music alrd from now onwards. I`ve got no more time on other stupid stuffs. Like i wasted my time in January, Feb and March. I really wasted my 3months on smth which i shouldn`t. Nvm. So now my life is all about my good frends, music and studies. (:
I`m gonna devote myself into these 3 areas!
Unlucky days are over. I`m embracing lucky, happy and fruitful days ahead!
So glad to hear that my frends feeling happy for me. I`m also really glad to have these frends around me. (:

HAPPY-GO-LUCKY! (:

2006-04-07T19:10:00.000+08:00

alright. I just came back from keyboard`s practice and i`m so proud to say that i`ve successfully completed my song, Hui Zhe Chi Pang De Nu Hai. And next week i`m gonna start on a new song, Zhi Shao Zou De Bi Ni Zao. (:
Oh yah. And i`ve also graduated from my basic vocal lessons from Hai Die. And now in order to follow up with JiaMing lao shi, i`ve went to Virtuoso Arts. He`s a darn good teacher u know. HAHA. (:
My grades was 75% / 100%. WAHAHAHA! *JUMPS*

But well, after all the happy stuffs. It`s time for some sad ones.
Sometimes, life is really just so unpredictable.
Sometimes, i just feel so not right. No idea why.
Someone condemned me. I will change from now onwards. To portrait that particular Gina that person wanted me to be. Just dun blame me for being too nice. And i really mean NICE. So nice that you will think that we`re strangers or far far away frends. I`ll make the effort to smile to u and say thank you. Don`t be surprise. I`ll really gonna treat u like how i treat those unfamiliar frends to me. That place had became so unfamiliar to me. We are starngers. No more warmth inside. No more heart-to-heart talk. That`s just so too bad. You chose to do so. You chose it urself. I gave in, u chose not to take it. Fine. It`s gonna be the end. Sindy can see that all these that i`m gonna portrait to u are just mainly sacarsm. Well, if ur bright enough, you should know that too. (:
God bless u.
I swear to myself, like how Riena swore to her diary. I will keep my mouth shut unless neccessary. Caz you forced me to it!
GOODBYE ***!

FUCK.

2006-03-24T19:41:00.000+08:00

Another week past. Weekends are here again. SIGH. I`m beginning to dun like weekends. I have no idea why too. But fearless. I`m moving on fine and well. No more nonsense feelings no more funny moodswings. (: It`s much more relaxed this way you know? Haha.

POOOOs. SAI MANN. I was horribly SICK last sunday. I was already feeling giddy on saturday like i will faint anytime. HAHA. And i told Regina if i suddenly faint in Suntec, the first person to call will be my mummy. And i even gave her my mummy`s handphone number. SO FUNNY! LOL! Oh ya! I went to the foodfair at Suntec with Reg and Riena. The place was SO COOL. SOOOOO many delicious food. And most importantly there`s our fav! Mango shave ice! WAHAHAHA! The one we 3 ate in Taiwan. It`s exactly the same here. LOL! Then the next day i went fer a movie with DENISE. Catch up with her! It`s been ermmm *count fingers* 3 months since we last seen each other. Not very long but it seemed so long though. LOL! But Sunday was worst. My head was about to split and i sneezed NON-STOP throughout. In the cinema, it was HOLY FREAKING DEADLY COLD! MADNESS! I almost froze. LOL! And i couldn`t even talk or laugh when the show was funny. HAHAHAHA! Caz i was tooooooo cold to move. We caught 2 BECOME ONE. Not bad. The last part was sweet i think. I think lah. HAHA! Well, i couldn`t take the train so i took a cab back home instead. And tadah! i K.O. at home. HAHA!
Went to the clinic at 10pm and the doctor thought i kena BIRD FLU. LOL!
The doctor is HILARIOUS! When i went in, i was sniffing away. Not because i cry but because of the bad flu and the first qns he asked me even before i sat down was 'U CRYING OR FLU?' LOL!!! DOCTOR!!! What`s the matter with u mann! Then my fever was 39degree. SO HIGH. SO COOL. LOL! As usual lah. What else... flu, cough, headache... Standard one! Then he measured my blood pressure. He said low blood pressure thats why i will wanna faint. LOL! So funny. He asked 'you want an injection to bring down ur fever?' before that i alrd wanna fell asleep caz i`m so sick and tired but when i heard that i got soooooo AWAKE! and look straight into the doc`s eyes and gave him a QUICK and SWIFT reply, NO! LOL! SIAO! I haven`t got an injection since Primary six can. NONO. IMPOSSIBLE. HAHAHA. Then get out of the room and collect my medicine. EEEEEKS. So many pills. LUCKILY NO LIQUID MED. I can`t take that mannn. Ever since i can swallow pills. LOL! Kill me, i won`t drink it. HAHA.
Anw, this sick cycle is so steady. First, Sindy then continuously to Samantha then to Gina. Without breaking it. LOL! Well, now we`re all FINE and HEALTHY! It really feels good to be healthy. Jumping and running about.
I hate it when i have to spend the whole day sleeping on bed. LOL!
But i still went to school on Monday despite of the given MC. HEHE. But the next day, i really can`t take it hence i gave myself MC. NO-NEED-TO-GO-SCHOOL! And i slept whole day at home on bed. -.-"

Alright. I miss my cousin. Who has got no bloooooooody single min fer me. :(
BOOOOOOOOOOOs.

GOODLUCK DOLL for tomorrow`s SUPERBAND! HOI TIN, GLAMOURS! (:
i`m SO PROUD of her, my childhood frend. (:

2006-03-18T22:31:00.000+08:00

i just find these very meaningful. esp... the last one. =/ they`re nice accompanyment in the late nights, on the bus and on the train. (:

IT'S BEEN SO LONG BABY,SO MANY YEARS,SO MANY DAYS
我心里的这句话，还是想对你说 사랑해요
站在寂寞的舞台上
灯光下拖着自己的影子
音乐重复我们共同的忧伤
不是每一次的演唱
就可以淡忘明天没有你
In my heart we’ll never be apart
残留手上的香味提醒我
在数位相机里留下的承诺
每一封简讯传出的思念都对你说
사랑해요 means “I love you”
代表着我离不开你
每分每秒每一个声音
只有你撒娇会让我微笑
사랑해요 只对你说
I will love you, and forevermore
我答应, baby you will see
每一个我都属于你

I can’t believe it
Tell me I’m dreaming That we are still ‘’we’’?
It was amazing Said you were lucky
That you found me
It was on a rainy day that we met You didn’t have a place to go I said we just met so lets go slow but no
You just told me to keep you from the cold
Sorry I can’t take it
Why did u fake it Why did we kiss
And I’m just down
You left me with a note without a sound
I figured I must have been such a child
You’ll never know how much I’ve been around
How my heart just frowns
If u are down
I’ll be your teddy bear , I’ll be your clown
I’ll take you round and round and
If you don’t mind I could be your standing ground
Even if that means I’d drown
And baby that’ll my one last vow

怎么能忘时间多长
你快乐吗
想代替你回答
你知道吗走了好远
我才能去面对
这份牵挂沉默伤悲
你要的不是我
心碎的失去轮廓
曾经给你的感动
只是情绪的波动
能给的不是我
放任你沉溺自由
掩饰不了我的笨拙
就连说话都会颤抖
我被遗忘在
你遗忘的角落
我被遗忘在
你遗忘的角落

我想念去年的冬天
下着雪的那一夜
你给的温柔
紧握的双手
温暖整个寒冬
失去了曾经的拥有
在你离开以后
带走了笑容
只留下寂寞
忘了幸福是什么
没有你的夜特别的漆黑
只能闭上双眼去感觉
没有我的夜谁在你身边
代替了那个从前
能不能再听一次你说爱我
回到还在你怀里的时候
能不能让我再一次拥有
曾属于我的温柔
能不能让我再一次拥有
曾属于我的温柔

2006-03-16T02:50:00.000+08:00

sorry but i`m just TOOOOOO bored.

and i stole this from jacq`s blog. hehe. thanks gurl. (:

1. i once: went to the beach, alone.

2. never in my life have i : been on a cruise.

3. the one person who can drive me nuts, but then can always make me smile : him.

4. high school is/was : sorry, currently still in secondary school. =/

5. when i'm nervous : i shiver.

6. the last time i cried was : 1st march 06.

7. if i were to get married right now, my bridesmaids/groomsmen would be : samantha and sindy and janet.

8. my hair is : not treated before.

9. my feet are : around size 6.5 to 7.

10. when I was 5 : i was rebellious.

11. last christmas : i was in bangkok.

12. when i turn my head left, i see : my bed.

13. when i turn my head right, i see : my greeny wall.

14. when i look down i see : my leg. -.-"

15. the craziest recent event was : waking up every hour when sleeping.

16. if i was a character on 'Friends' i'd be: ???

17. by this time next year : i`ll be outta school!!! (((:

19. i have a hard time understanding : you-know-who-you-are.

20. one time at a family gathering : i wasn`t there.

21. you know i "like" you if : i tell you. obviously.

22. if i won an award, the first person i'd thank is : myself.

23. take my advice : don`t ever regret.

24. my ideal breakfast is : soya beancurd.

25. if you visit my hometown : don`t ever do so, sg is boring.

26. where do you plan to visit anytime soon : hong kong & japan.

27. girls are : bitches.

28. i'd stop my wedding if: tsunami attacks.

29. the world could do without : schools.

30. i'd rather lick the belly of a cockroach than : no way.

31. most recent thing you've bought yourself : fox top.

32. most recent thing someone else bought you : egg tart. -.-"

33. my favorite time of day is : night.

34. my favorite store is : alot.

35. my favorite ringtone is: liu sha.

36. and by the way: it's 3.05.

37. the last time i was high: 14th march 06.

38. the person who I last talked to told me to: dun care. (:

39. i shouldn't have been: BORNED.

40. once, on the highway: i witnessed an accident.

41. last night: i was online and sleeping.

42. there's this girl i know who: is determined not to care.

43. there is this guy i know who: is a jerk.

44. a better name for me would be: still gina.

45. if I ever go: forget me not.

2006-03-14T08:48:00.000+08:00

OHIAYOH PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!! (((:
Yeah! It`s another brand new day another brand new start!
So surprising that i`m awake so early. HEHE.
ALright, these are the recapps of what happened over the weekends.

Saturday:
Samantha ran outta camp in the middle of the night and came to my house to stay with Jiaming. HAHAHA. So funny. Yeap. And she ran back to school again very early in the morning. This is lame. HAHA. But it was fun that night alrightttt. (:
Sunday: I was Studying. WAH PIANGGGGG. I can`t believe it but it`s true. LOL! I studied Chemistry the cahpter on Chemical Analysis. WAHAHAHAHA! But i got a serious fucking moodswing in the night. Oh man! WTF! Well, it`s all over now! CHEERS! (:
Monday: Went WWW with XinMin, my CHILDHOOD BUD. Flashed back the past, well she have definitely changed alot. In character wise. She`s soooooo much lovable now. WAHAHAHA! I LOVE HER. And i know she definitely love me too. MUAHAHAHAHAHA! Well, kinda miss those days when we went Australia together, bathing together, cuddles into sleep together, play dressing up together... TONNES of sweet and honeyed memories. HAHA. Well, i`m gettin' outta topic. Yeap. After WWW we went to TM fer our dinner at Pastamania then met up with Jereborne and JunChuan. Inititally wanted to watch the dno-what-mama-show but ferget it. HAHA. Caz by the time i reach home i`ll be very sleepy so i shall leave her there with them and i head home! Tired lah. But was indeed happy! (:
OH YAH! She`s has got into top 18 of SUPERBAND. So people, PLEASE SUPPORT THEM! GLAMOURS! (((: HOI TIN GAL!!!

Alright, today! I`m goin' out soon. To meet my girlfriends fer a swim before goin' to school to study. Can`t stand it. We`re just so freaking hardworking. WAHAHAHAHAHA. PUKES!
Well, gotta run. Else i`ll be late! HOHOHO.
BYEBYE! (((:

2006-03-11T15:17:00.000+08:00

There ain`t keyboard lesson yesterday. =( fer some stupid reasons lah. @$$#^^(*)#%@%!# I really think my passion towards music is growing stronger and stronger these days. I yearn fer lessons every now and then. (: YEAY. And Perry gave mii a paper to fill in TEN songs that i liked most thus she`ll search fer the scores and teach mii to play the songs. WAHAHAHA. I`M VERY EXCITED! First song`ll definitely be KISS GOODBYE. WAKAKAKA! Baby bu yao zai ku qi, zhe yi mu duo mo shou xi, jin wo zhe ni de shou bi ci dou she bu de fen li... and on and on. (((:

Sindy fell sick yesterday. BOOs. Samantha is tied down by NPCC camp. WTF! NO ACCOMPANYMENT THIS WEEKEND! FUCK FUCK FUCK! MEN SI LE!
Went swimming with Sam yesterday and none of us brought sun-tanning lotion. -.-" Too bad. We can`t go sun-tanning. The last time i went swimming i think it was with him. About one month or so back. Well, it was a memorable day in fact. Caz there was laughters and joy in the pool. (: Well, after that she went back to school fer camp and i headed to Hougang. WHOA! If i continue in this dire state, i`ll end up in Hougang chalet one fine day. I really think so. Okay, it`s out of topic. Back back back.
And i went to school fer PTC just now in the morning. Everything was fine. Same old words teacher would say every year. 'GINA IS VERY HOT TEMPERED.' LOL! And Mrs Ho requested to see my mom too. ALAMAK! But luckily, she didn`t say much negative stuffs. What a close shave!

There`s like PILES of assignments to complete. ARGHHHHH! Nvm. I MUST COMPLETE ALL. ASAP! Honestly, my role model would be YunKwang. Well, this guy changed alot and impressed all of us. Yes! I must be like him. Endure and preservere till the end!

I think i`m heading to Riena`s house soon. GOODBYE peeps!

Everyone should be H-A-P-P-Y!

2006-03-04T18:10:00.000+08:00

LOOK LOOK LOOK!
IT`S A SATURDAY. I`m home already.
LIFE IS SO BORING!!!

It`s already been afew saturday(s) that i`m like that. Nowhere to go nowhere to hangout. Feeling so empty so bored. I hope fer weekends during weekdays and yet hoping to go school during weekends. Maybe it`s because i`m still in secondary school. Stuck between the age of nowhere. 16years old? What can i do? There`s some things which i`m still unable to do.

Take today fer an example. I went kboxing with Samantha in the morning. We`re both quite unhappy thus wanted to get some alcoholic drink from cheers but the cashier checked our i/c. DUMBASS. So we got another stranger guy to get it from us. I started off with 'Erm hi. Can u do us a favour?' Sounds stupid. -.-" If i were him i`d be so shocked also. Haha. Well, we`ve managed to get our drinks in the end.
Sing sing sing. It`s been a long time since i last sang. The feeling`s so nice. (((:

After that we walked around in town. It was practically bored. I had no idea why but i used to like town alot but now the whole place seems so bored fer mii. I remembered godpa told mii this few years back when i was younger 'you`ll get tired of what ur doing now as you grow.' I don`t agree with what he said that the moment of time lah. Caz i used to think that no, of caz not. I`ll shop till the end of time when i`ve got no more energy. It`s true you kniw. The whole place seems so no-big-deal to mii alrd. Maybe because i`ve been so used to this lifestyle alrd that it no longer has anymore excitement and fun. I want a change of lifestlye! I`ve had enough of shoppings and spending money. I realized that it ain`t what u wear on your body that makes one pretty or handsome but it`s really the 'inside' that shines a person. I wanna have fun. Fun even without needing any money spent. Like going to sentosa, the beach... It`s just a more rural life. More layback style. I wanna sing and play my keyboard. Polish my skills. Doing things that i like. And actually who ur spending your time with matters too. Do they worth your time? That`s an important factor. I dno lah. I always have this kinda funny feelings within mii. I get into depression easily. Which ain`t something good you see.

My girlfriends and i had a talk with Ms Lyvenne Chong on Friday. She really inspired us to go into the university. Caz really, without that degree where can you go? She asked mii what`s my ambition? Music career or tourism line? I pondered lah. Maybe a PR and a part-time vocalist in some pubs. That`s my dream you see. I wanna do things which i like. I wanna start off high and not slowly climb up. So yah lah, i`m gonna go into a poly and into the U. Dno lah. As usual, study as hard as i can. Mdm Shah named afew names of those she think might not make it and luckily i wasn`t one of them. PHEW! At least it ain`t that demoralizing. At least i still have got some hope. Well, afterall i still hafta depend on myself. Alright so, i should pack up my complicated feelings and start studying. (:

i think it`s really purely habits. it ain`t love. i think lah.

2006-02-28T18:47:00.000+08:00

Common test was a total screwed up! Holy shit!
I think i failed half of my total subjects. There was too much distractions from everywhere. I used think i could handle it well but too bad. I was wrong totally! I can only blame myself fer not holding my rights and not staying focused.
It`s a blink of eyes and 2months have past. Which means the holy scary 'O' LEVELS are drawing nearer and nearer. 4EC is not doing fine. Sad to say lah. My aims, my dreams are like drifting so far. So unreachable. My future seems like waving goodbye to mii.
Whatever. 'Walk a step and count a step' Haha. WTH.

Went to Sindy`s house with Samantha today. It was total boredness after school lah. We went to fair price caz she said she wanna get some stuffs to prepare japanese food fer us. WAHAHAHA. our suki ramen`s tori karagge set. HAHAHA. so cute. Slacked and rotted in her house.
Well, i got alot of reprimands from them today. Asking mii to look brighter in life be more positive don`t think so much don`t waste my time... carry on to study hard. Common test 1 was a screwed up. Ain`t i scared? I was indeed scared. BUT... my feelings dosen`t allow mii to move on you see. I`m stucked between yes and no. Want and don`t want. It ain`t easy you know, gal. I`m sure you gals know too. But well, just blame it on that i`m not lucky enough lah. Nothing else.

But i`m so glad that they`re always there reminding mii of what`s right and what`s wrong. I`m really glad. They dosen`t give up on mii. (((:
I LOVE MY GIRLFRIENDS. (:

2006-02-25T03:39:00.000+08:00

WHOA! WHOA! WHOA!
FEBRUARY 24TH 2006 HAD PAST...
GINA`s OFFICIALLY SIXTEEN. WAHAHAHAHAHA!
And i had the most memorable, fun and BEAUTIFUL birthday/day in my entire life. (:

it was joy that was accompanying mii throughout. (((:
i can smile in my dreams.

24th Feb 12 midnight...
My phone rang non-stop. All my loved ones sent blessings to mii.
You know, it isn`t the birthday present that you got on your birthday counts but rather the thots people REMEMBERED your birthday and spend that few seconds of efforts to type you a 'Happy Birthday!'. I appreciate all who bothered to do so. I`m thankful to people who even stayed up to send mii the msg on the right time. (:
Samantha, Sindy, Jiaming, Willi, Regina, Yiru, Felicia Chia, XinMin, Alicia, Leslie, BinPei, Ivy, Trudy, Jo, Jasmine Toh/Lee, Clarice, Pat, XiHui, Nat... my fellow 4EC classmates on and on. Haha. Too many names to remember. (:

The plan goes like this...
6.30am: Samantha called to wake mii up and ordered mii to reach school at 7:15am.
7:15am: When i reached school, i get outta mummy`s car and i heard 'GINA!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!' WHOA! i turn around and got shocked! Haha. Willi drove Samantha, Sindy and Cass to school and gave mii the bouquet of 6 red roses. AWWW. Hahahahahaha.
It was initially 9 caz CHANG CHANG JIU JIU means all of us will last till the end but that stupid florist went to put 6 instead. !$#^&*^&)@# But it`s okay. It`s the thoughts that counts. (:
Then we play play play in school lah. It was so fun practically. (((:
I was so so so happy since 12 midnight. I smile while i sleep and woke up with a smile too. WAHAHAHAHA.

Then 12:15pm. SCHOOL BELL RANG. HOORAY! OUT WE GOT OUTTA SCH.
Okay blah blah blah.
I skip skip skip those not so important parts. But one of the more important part that took place in between was that JIAMING gave mii another bouquet of flowers. WAHAHAHA. this time round is SUNFLOWER. HAHAHA. So cute lah.

Alright. Then at night. I was lied by them the whole day lah huh. Hehehe. Felt so dumb. HAHAHA. we were playing in Taka. LOL! Made those people in the shop so pissed off. LOL! Don`t care lah! Haha. We were dancing around making noise and watching 'porn'. OOPS. HAHA. i`m SIXTEEN lah. HAHAHA.

Untill around evening. I had no idea why but i got into depression. LOL! It`s just some kind of funny feelings lah. Hehehe. It was because of some people whom i hoped fer. That person said he couldn`t come or wat shit. THUNDER STRIKES! But well, Samantha said ask all of us to Somerset Mrt to fetch that Mr SURPRISE whom they claimed it was LESLIE after my forcing. WAH PIANG! I nearly fainted mann. LOL! I never wanted to see that person lah huh. Then theh then... that 'MR SURPRISE' called Samantha and said that he`s there so Sindy was told to cover my eyes. But i dowanna be some kind of sotong in the end then i RAN. LOL! Wearing heels and ran from her and she chased lah. Around Somerset Mrt and the carpark can. It was superduper UGLY! -.-"
Then JIAMING`s turn to chase. He caught mii near the toilet and stranggled mii back. LOL! AND TADAH!!! HE APPEARED!
My first reaction was...
WHOA!
WHOA!!
WHOA!!!
WHOA!!!!
I KEPT WHOA AND WHOA AND WHOA HAHAHAHAHA! I WAS SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SUPER DUPER SHOCK! SHOCK TILL I NEARLY FAINTED. That asshole cum silly boyy of mine is there! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA! I couldn`t believe my eyes mann. I think i nearly broke out into tears. Happiness tears! HAHAHAHAHAHA. So those lil silly gals of mine was lying to mii all the while and called him to arrange this surprise fer mii. HUGS MANNN!!! (((:
I felt so important so loved so cared fer and so pampered by all those in my life.
Hehe.
Then all of them see mii pai seh-ing. =x HAHAHA. =X
Samantha said "my aim was to leave you a memorable birthday."
YOU`VE DONE IT MY DEAR! (:
Thus we headed to the Esplanade to cut cake. SO HAPPY. HAHAHA.
The cake was bought by Willi. WAHAHAHA. THANKS, my future brother-in-law. (:
So sad. We didn`t got to take pictures together when we cut the cake caz the wind was blowing strong. It was already very lucky that the fire could last till they sang birthday song fer mii and i made my wish and cut the cake. HAHA. The fire burnt all the guys hand. LOL! Poor things. HAHAHA.
Then not long later Samantha`s daddy called so she had to leave so Willi drove all of them back left that asshole and mii over there. LOL!
OKAYY. what happened next are all private and confidential. LOL!

Anyway, 24th Feb 2006, it was the most beautiful day of my life. I got so many 'first time'. And all these are credited to Samantha and Sindy fer making it work out. Thanks fer all the effort put in. I dno how to say lah but i know it ain`t easy contacting everybody, cheering mii up when i`m down and making this celebration a success one. I really really really wanna thank you gals from the bottom of my heart. It`s you gals who made my wish came true. ILOVEYOU.
I`ve never regretted knowing you people. Not in my life. We`ll still be sisters in our next life, next next life, next next next life... on and on. Till the end.
Unexpressed gratitude. (:
SAMANTHA&&SINDY, DA SISTERS OF MY LIFE. (:

i used to regret coming to northland and that`s because i hadn`t know you gals.
but now i`m rooted to there caz of you gals.
unless you gals leave, else we`ll fight thru the end together. (((:

we`re smiling caz one of us is happy.
we`re frowning caz one of us is sad.
Nothing can breaks us apart.
Not even death. (:

2006-02-19T20:39:00.000+08:00

WAHHHHHHHHHHH.
I was so bored that i went to surf the sites. HAHA. No idea why but TOKYO TOWER flashed across my mind so i went to look fer pictures of it lah.
AND I GOT SO DESPERATE TO GO TO JAPAN AFTER VIEWING!!!
IT`S SO FREAKINGLY NICE MANNNNNNN. I SW...

Okay. It`s supposed to be i SWEAR. The reason i stopped suddenly was because...

Gina was happily blogging about TOKYO TOWER suddenly godpa came into the room.
Godpa: Girl ah, ni de sheng ri ah. hehehe. (Girl ah, your birthday ah. hehehe.)
Gina: Huh. Mei you mah. Hai hen jiu leh. (Huh. No mah. Still long leh.)
Bro came in and gave mii a cheeky smile.
Bro: Zeh! Faster go out lah!
Gina was sooooo blur. She really didn`t know what`s going on. Thus she went out and she saw everyone surrounding the CAKE.
HAHAHAHAHAHA. MY FAMILY AND RELATIVES CELEBRATED MY 16TH BIRTHDAY FER MII.
though it`s only on the 24th. But well, i`m soooooooooo touched. (:
So pai seh also lah. HAHA.
I haven`t got to cut a cake with my family and relatives fer a LONGGGGG time already.
this is a erm SHEN SHENG de gan jue. I dno how should i describe it. It may be simple but yes thoughtful. (:

Alright. Back to my JAPAN.
THE TOWER... IT WAS SIMPLY GORGEOUS!
UNDESCRIBED PRETTY AND ATTRACTIVE!
The night life of TOKYO is really... W-O-N-D-E-R-F-U-L.
I WILL GO TO TOKYO ONE DAY!
we`ll hold our hands together, beneath the tokyo tower. (:

WOOHOO! I`m about to recover! That energetic and stupid Gina will be back soon. (=
She`ll go around creating troubles and start her madness all over again.
SO FUN!
Start to fight and scream with my gals.
WAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
HIAK HIAK HIAK!
SINDY AND SAMANTHA, LET`S GO!!! ((((((((((((:
It`s common test week! EIHJFSNAFSIODJAWNK
Let`s all work hard together!
suo wei, 'YI FEN GENG YUN YI FEN SHOU HUO' AH.
WAHAHAHAHHAA.
I sound like somekind of LAO AH MA. EHEH!

Looking forward to Friday. Caz that`s the day when i can PLAY LIKE MAD!
It`s our last paper.
Original group to that hot hot SENTOSA again!
MUACKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

PURE GEOGRAPHY & ENGLISH TML.
WISH MII LUCKS!

BYEEEEEEE.
SMOOCHESSSSSSSSS.

2006-02-10T08:11:00.000+08:00

cousin told mii...

no matter what you do, NI BU KE YI DUI BU QI NI ZI JI DE LIANG XIN!
i think it`s time i do some soul searching.
i do feel GUILTY when she said that.
where`s that righteous gina gone to?
the one who do things with a clear conscience despite influences from everywhere.
gone. she`s gone.

i`m living in a world where i`m fear of what i`ve done.
i`m narrow-minded.
i get flared up easily and only live in a tiny world of my own where i don`t accpet any help and care from anybody.
I DON`T WISH TO!
she say i can change fer the better,
it just take some time.
i`m really lost when i heard that.
caz i really let myself down.

well, fer the past few weeks, it`s just lonliness and emptyness following and accompanying mii.
i`m never happy.
but now, i feel so stupid.
why am i destroying myself caz of...
i really really feel so stupid and silly.
maybe people grow from their STUPIDITY and sillyness before they would realize what they`ve done.
i actually habour the thought of drinking alcohol to numb myself.
to SMOKE to DESTRESS.
FUCK!!!
WHAT IS THIS MANN!!!
usually, my girls and i would just CURSE and SWEAR on anyone who smoke but yet, i wanna smoke myself.
it`s a real turn over in my life.
i`m undergoing the tough chapter of it now.
once it`s over, it`s over.
i believe.

well, i just wanna say sorry to my girls.
who innocently suffered under my tantrums.
i told samantha...
girl, i somewhat feel that i seemed to be unable to enter sindy and your world.
i just feel so un-belonged.
but i`m really glad to have you both once in my life. (this is very true. they`re really wonderful buddies whom i`ve never met before in my life.)
but i know, with my condition now, we could never return to before.
we`ve no choice but to go seperate ways already.
it`s all my problems you see. you girls are very good. problem just lies on mii.
we are unable to have anymore sentosa trips, east coast roller blading, steamboats, esplanades, skipping of lessons/school, havocs... those laughters won`t be back anymore.
people seeing the 3 of us together are just surface seeing only.
no more genunine bonds anymore.
i really feel so childish to say such stupid words.
what the hell am i doing mann?
but i`m very touched that she dosen`t give up on mii despite of what i`ve done to hurt her.
this is what samantha said...
"Darling arh.. Dun men men bu le le laTry relaxin urself.. No point making yourself suffer.. U like this make me remember of the working time de u.. Where everyday so moody.. Those days finally ended.. But so fast, another challenge is up 4 u le.. Mustn break down..! Gonna stand strong..! Rmb i used to say dun think tat u'r sway or u wil b more sway? It's the same logic here.. Think of the positive side.. Even if dere's a need, bluff urself 2 make urself feel better.. At least when u feel better, ur days will eventually pass even more faster.. i mayb silly n stupid.. i dunno wat 2 say 2 make u feel better.. But juz noe tat when u feel unhappy or not in the mood, i wont feel gd till anywhere too.. C u everyday like tat.. Dunno wat can i do 2 make u happy.. Tot i cant promise tat i'll b der whenever u needed someone, but i can promise u tat i'll b ur listening ear.. Anytime, any place, anywhere.. SMILEZ..!!"

"Stress, everybody will always b stress up by something de.. Is how u manage it n look at it.. By learning 2 cope wit ur stress, will make a person grow up.. When i used 2 b so stressed up, it's always u n sindy bein der 4 me.. This make me really cherish u both.. The 2 whole full yr tat we had been 2gether, stil cant let u c how deeep is our relation ma..? When me and sindy feel trouble up, we'll look up 4 u.. Now it's ur turn.. Do u think we will leave u aside and let u carry this burden alone..? No.. No matter how u treat me as.. I will nev leave u alone goin through these difficult stages..! mayb nev express out, but deep in my heart, i always care abt u n sindy.. Cuz u both really did alot 4 me in the past which i cant find anyway 2 thx u both, the best way 4 me 2 thx u both is 2 b der 4 u both too.. N through these yrs, we have been 2gether.. Through thick n thinks.. high n low.. Shouldnt our bondin b even stronger den anything? Dun b silly 2 think abt leavin us can? cuz u already had become part of my life.. Do u know how it feels 2 hav lost somebody who had already become part of ur life..? We r very willin 2 go through the difficultieswit u,, It's not those tat u had done 4 us in the past tat we're returning 2 u.. It's the things tat we've veen through tat make me more wanna be wit u when u're in this mood.. So stop bein silly n say nonsense again.. I dun wanna hear tat again.. It really hurts.. I juz wanna b wit u now n always.. Goin through wit u of those tat u gone through..

wahhhhhh. TMD TMD TMD!!! i feel soooooooooo god damn bloody stupid and childish when i saw these heart warming words. i swear. i definitely touched mii.
i feel so narrow-minded. :(
i nearly teared when i see this ' cuz u had already become part of my life.. Do u know how it feels 2 hav lost somebody who had already become part of ur life..?'
even now after sometime, i can still feel that my tears are gushing out after i read this.
to think i could actually say such hurtful words to hurt the sister of my life.
i`m very very sorry.
i actually wanna give both of them up caz of some worthless freaking bastard.
now that she`s encountering some major problems in life, i`m not gonna leave her alone. (:
caz she was there fer mii during the low stages in my life.
well, problems are like never ending. :(
firstly, it was mii.
next up, it was samantha.
after this, who`ll it be?
heaven is sure cruel. well, we`re NOT gonna give each other up anymore.
from now onwards, our bondings will be stronger than before and ever. (:

cousin said this again...
'let mii ask u this. if you leave them, are u sure that you can find the same friends again?
who can treat you like how they does?
i tell you, no matter what, you can`t find the second sindy or samantha!'
it really knocked senses into mii.
caz i know that no matter what i won`t be able to find the second sindy or samantha in the world.
people who don`t know us may not see the bonding among us.
but we don`t need them to know.
caz we know it ourselves best.

we will be strong.
so that we can we can be there fer the 3 of us anytime, any place and anywhere!!! (:

2006-02-06T01:17:00.000+08:00

MONDAY BLUUUUUUUUUUUUES.
=(

well. i`m ain`t asleep at this hour.
i have no idea how am i gonna wake up tml morning.
mummy is sick and she can`t send mii to school tml. =(
life`s in a total mess.
and i really mean MESS.
i spent a nice friday afternoon with my buddies.
but a horrendous night tearing at home.
saturday woke up with a light heart but empty feeling. i felt lost.
i had no idea what should i do hence i went out walking alone.
i came home at 9.30pm.
how i wished i was drunk.
at least i won`t be thinking so much and undergoing all these.
xinmin said, prepare to go thru these OVER AND OVER AGAIN.
well, i`m prepared.
caz i`m not determined enough.
enough of these.
i`m going off.

goodnight.
i pray fer a easy day tml.
a day without sorrows.

2006-02-04T00:46:00.000+08:00

if only i can just get drunk with just a sip of liquor.

i choose not to be sober. :'(

2006-01-31T19:14:00.000+08:00

LIFE`S A BIATCH!

2006-01-31T15:08:00.000+08:00

starting of ferst day of chinese new year.

i`m at grandma`s place.

i`m home!

she`s my beloved sis. (:
what the hell mann. -.-"
end of ferst day,

starting of second day.

end of second day.

new year celebration.

the feeling is kind of empty.

i seemed to have lack of something in life which i could never get.

suffering from serious pms and moodswings these days.

i dun wish to. but i can`t control my feelings.

and today, the third day.

i`m supposed to go to riena`s house to bai nian, to samantha`s house to celebrate her 16th birthday with her.

but i`m at home. =(

moodless to go anywhere.

i got changed just now. wanting to go to town alone but dropped the idea after all.

you know, alone shopping kills.

you`ll feel aimless.

it`ll only make mii feel worse, more depressed. but i enjoy the depressness that`s coming to mii. i think this is called 'zi nue kuang'. tmd.

sorry samantha. one will only be 16 a time in his/her entire life but i couldn`t spend this day with u. that`s because i dun wish to affect u with my complicated feelings.

enjoy your day.

i`ll make it up.

happy birthday samantha and yiru.

the blog song is torturing mii.